in time// c.d

Chapter 5

I woke up with a pounding headache.

My dream about Cameron last was crazy. I mean I like him but he is a player and I don't if I should get into that. I mean he doesn't even like me.

(A/n the last chapter was her dream)

I got up and walked to my closet. I put on a grey knitted crop top, black and white flannel, black leggings, and black booties.

I'm so glad it's Saturday. Thank you life. I grabbed and apple and sat on the island. I pulled my phone out and saw I had a text from Max and Cam.

Max😁💗- hey we still gonna hang?
Me- yeah
Max😁💗- okay great see ya☺️❤️
Me- bye😊❤️

Now I have to text Cam. Ugh that's takes effort. I'm kidding, kinda.

Cameron😼💙- hey wanna hang?
Me-can't I'm hanging with max sorry
Cameron😼💙- oh.
Me- yeah sorry. We can hang now for like 15 minutes.
Cameron😼💙- sounds good❤️
Me- yep❤️

I heard the door bell ring so I got up and saw it was Cam. He was wearing khaki shorts, a blue sweatshirt from our school, and black vans.

"Hey" he said.

"Hi" I said and motioned him in. He walked in and we went up to my room. Cam sat on my bed and I sat on my window sill like always.

"How are you?" He asked.

"Good I guess. You?" I said.

"Good" he said and walked over to me. I began to get nervous for some reason. He opened my window and climbed onto my balcony. As I followed I saw he was on my roof. I jumped up there with him.

"Look Alex, I need to tell you something before its to late" he said. My breathing began to turn a little heavy. He tucked a piece of hair behind my ear sending chills down my body.

"Alex I'm in love with you" he said and rubbed his thumb over my cheek. I shivered under his touch. He kissed my lips passionately. I didn't kiss back.

"Cameron, I'm dating Max I'm sorry" I said and felt a tear slip from my eye. He clenched his jaw and looked at the sky.

"Cameron please can we please be friends? I can't lose you again" the words slipped off my mouth like I wasn't even talking.

"Yeah we can" he said and jumped of the roof onto my balcony. I did the same.

"But, just so you know every time I'm with you I'm gonna wanna kiss you" he said and kissed my cheek. I felt a tear fall down my cheek.

"I'll see ya when you get home" he said and grabbed my waist and hugged me. I put my arms around his neck. He pulled away and left.

I sat on my bed and looked at the picture of Cam and I from 7th grade. I smiled. Am i so blind to not realize that Cameron is right in front of me.

"Alex! Max is here" I heard my brother yell. I got and walked downstairs. I saw max standing there at the door. I faked a smile and hugged him.

"Hey max I was going to call you and tell you I'm not feeling well" I said.

"Oh I'm sorry how about we hang next Thursday?" He asked. I nodded and he kissed my cheek. I smiled and shut the door as he left.

"Your not sick" Justin said and crossed his arms. I rolled my eyes and walked upstairs. I changed into grey sweatpants, a black sweatshirt, and my black fuzzy socks. I sat on my bed and looked at the picture of Cam and I from 7th grade.

"I'm so fucking stupid" I mumbled.

I buried my face into my pillow and sobbed. I can't believe I left Cameron slip away. I'm so fucking stupid. I got up and threw my pillow at the wall.

I pushed a bunch of my glass stuff of my desk and dresser. I screamed and threw the pic of me and Cam at the wall. I picked up a piece of glass and the pic and slid down the wall.

I put the picture beside me and grabbed the piece of glass . I held the glass to my wrist. Here goes 2 years of being clean wasted. When I was about the slid it over my wrist someone opened my door.

"Alex stop!" They yelled. I looked to see Cam. He stood there looking down on me. He took the glass from my hand and put it on my desk. He then picked me up bridal style and sat us on my bed.

"Cameron" I whimpered. "Please hold me" I began sobbing into his shirt. He rubbed circles into my back calming me slowly.

"Where's max?" He asked.

"Home" I said sitting up.

"Why?" He asked again.

"I lied and said I was sick" I said and played with hand.

"Why?" He once again.

"Can you stop asking why please. I realized I didn't want to go out today" I said and walked over to my the picture of cam and I.

"Cameron I really lik-" I got cut off by my brother yelling.

"Cam Emily is here!" He yelled. Cam got up and walked downstairs. I followed slowly. He approached a blonde girl and hugged her. He then kissed her lips. I felt like my heart stopped.

"Emily this is my friend Alex" he said and pointed to me. By the look on her face I must of been the definition of a hot mess. 

"Hi" she smiled.

"Hi" I said and faked a smile.

I walked back upstairs and slammed my door. I grabbed the glass and slid it over my wrist 3 times. I threw it away and cleaned my cuts.

I changed into black jeans, a black sweatshirt, and my white converse. I walked downstairs and saw Cam,Emily, and Justin laughing. I rolled my eyes and walked to the door.

"Where are you going?" Cameron asked.

"Why do you care?" I snapped and opened the door. I walked down our steps and to the drive way.

"Alex wait!" I heard Cameron yell.

"What?" I snapped.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Fuck no! You tell me you love and you have a fucking girlfriend! You are the biggest bastard ever Cameron! I cancelled my date with max cause I wanted you! But you have precious little Emily! So leave me alone! You never loved me it was all a little game to you!" I yelled and ran down my drive way. I kept running because I couldn't stop. My legs ached but I just couldn't stop.

Maybe in time we'll be something.