Angel's Poems

Peace and harmony +AN

I cry. I smile.
One time it's him another it's her. Yet another it's them
I don't care. It is to them to return.
Life must go on.
I've done nothing wrong.
So I choose peace. Harmony may it come to me.

Hey it's Angel so here's the deal I decided to write a chapter telling a little more about myself and the inspiration behind my poems.
So...
My name is Angel (technically nickname from my parents). I have divorced parents. Before you start saying I'm sorry, they got divorced when I was 3. I, honestly, couldn't ever picture them together. Most people struggle with their parents not getting along or that they miss being one family. That's not me. If you were to ask my what the worst thing about divorced parents is I would actually say living in two completely different environments. Surprising right? Well this might help shed some light. My mom is single. She is so nice. She is always encouraging and forgiving. She listens to me. The only thing she would ever pester me about is my grades although she even has tried to lighten up because she realizes the anxiety is not good for me or my sister. Oh yeah btw I have a younger sister. Anyways  she also is being less strict about my grades cause all my grades are A's or B's. Now about my dad. He is remarried actually he and my stepmom got married about a year after my dad and my mom got divorced. I love them. But they are very harsh about the smallest things. From my hair being slightly out of place to a stray water bottle on my nightstand to the folding of clothes basically everything involving neatness. They criticize me and my sister. Additionally they hate being corrected one time I was sick and my stepmom told me if its a cold it might turn into the flu, I corrected her that the cold and flu are two completely different viruses and she got mad cause she thought I had an attitude. We in a huge argument and by the end I was grounded for about a month. (btw if you read the wallflower journals and any of this sounds familiar that's because sometimes I get inspiration for my writing from real things that happen in my life, also if you haven't read it, sorry but it has been unpublished for now, although I still keep all of the drafts and will republish it when I get the chance). And my dad well I love him but we often fight about politics. I get my political views from my mom and he doesn't agree with them and whenever I bring them up he gets mad and says we (my sister and I) never listen or care about the other side (not true), and that our mother is brainwashing us. I hate it. Imagine being shut down from sharing your own beliefs because your parents feel they are stupid. Also he and my stepmom sometimes call names when they get mad (which my mom does not approve of and tells my dad not to do). Sometimes when I don't know how to do something like sort clothes properly they will tell me I thought you were smart. I hate that. Or one time I couldn't sweep properly (because I have motor skills, I hardly ever sweep, and I was using an unusually short broom) and my dad called me a retard then when I told him that I felt upset that he called me that he said what it's true then mimicked me acting stupid. My mother was furious to her that especially because she not only thinks calling children names is wrong she also does not like people using that word as an insult. Anyways so more about them. Sometimes they have tried to drag my sister on to their side in arguments with me, she used to stay neutral afraid of both sides but she eventually got tired of their excessive reaction to such small things that she started defending me. I love her so much. And I love them too but as some might imagine it gets hard. Now onto my school life as I explained I do very well in school. And as for my friends I have two friends I consider my best friends both of which are on wattpad and for the sake of their safety I will refer to them by their wattpad names Serenity and MyKingdomCome (MKC). They always comfort me about fighting with my parents and I do the same for them. And then there is well let's just call him Peter (not real name) You see he is my ex boyfriend, we used to be really close best friends but we drifted apart despite our promises to maintain best friends even after breaking up. Although he still is willing to let me hang out where he does sometimes it's not the same and he kinda gets annoyed by me sometimes so I usually don't really go around him but I always say hi every chance I get. It kills me because honestly I still like him but I understand that he doesn't feel the same. And I accept it. One of the things I remember most about when I used to be with him is he used to have the most realistic dreams and they sometimes terrified him. Like one time he dreamt that serenity committed suicide. To make it scarier he knew that she sometimes struggles with depression and he said that night he woke up on the floor of his room in tears. And finally there is Aly (not real name) and Nick (this is actually his name). "Aly" is an old friend of mine we used to be best friends but drifted apart over time. She knows that Serenity and MKC are closer to me now but it upsets her honestly I feel terribly guilty but it's true. And then Nick he is my friend, he is funny. He loves singing and someday wants to be a professional singer but he is often crushed by rejection. These people are the inspirations of my poems and several of my books. Oh and if there's me and the influence they have on my life.
Examples of prior poems and people
A letter to..., behind your door, people of the sky: Peter
Warrior: Aly (well actually more of my lost relationship with Aly)
Trinity of light: serenity and MKC
I Believe: Nick
She wished, the girl I am, slightly broken, etc.: my parents (mostly my dad and stepmom)
And there are other poems about these people but you know I have like around 30 poems so that's a lot to list.
Btw if you are wondering who a poem is about feel free to ask I'll tell you.