So Much For My Happy Ending

Chapter 8

I was the first to wake up over everyone in the cabin. I glanced around at the sleeping girls and I jumped out trying to be as silent as I could. I grabbed my things and went to go change. I settled on a tie dye T shirt and a pair of track shorts. We were going to be in a bus for 3 hours anyway. I groaned. I can't believe Kenzlie is crushing on the same guy that I was. I kinda figured though. I mean who wouldn't like Blaze? I'm sure he's got tons more girls on his tail.

In fact I could already name a few. My neighbor Tori. Her best friend Megan. Kenzlie's best friend Mady. Mady's friends. Melanie probably but she won't admit it. Gosh there were tons more. Oh right... I forgot. ME.

I sighed as I looked into the mirror. Kenzlie was pretty. No she was gorgeous and to be honest I was really plain. I had to do what was right here didn't I? I grabbed my bag and I went back to the bunks to pack my things and get ready to load the bus. After I was done I woke up Melanie and Kenzlie telling them I was going to go see if the boys were up and if they could help me with loading the bus and I set off.

In all honesty I wasn't asking for help. I didn't need help with my bags, I was capable of taking care of myself but I wanted to find Blaze. I knocked on the cabin and Zel opened the door with plaid pants and a white undershirt. I laughed at his sleepy appearance and asked if Blaze was there. Blaze came out dressed properly and his backpack slung over his shoulder ready to load the bus.

Looking good as always. He was tall and I had to look up at him in a way that intimaded me but made me feel safe at the same time. How was that possible?

"Hey Xoe, you're up early." Blaze said not really surprised at all.

"I could say the same for you."

"Yeah I guess you could... But that's not the point. Why are you up so early wanting me?"

"Right... you know my best friend?" I questioned him.

"Zel?"

"No I meant Kenzlie. I heard that you liked her." I said testing his reaction.

"Maybe. Why?" He said and I started to feel my heart drop a little bit.

"She likes you back." i said my voice starting to get high.

"Oh really?" He said clearly shocked

"Yeah really..." I had managed to choke out.

"I should ask her out."

For a second my voice caught in my throat. I knew I was doing the right thing but it still hurt. I really like Blaze but I didn't want to hold Kenzlie back. She really liked him too and Blaze didn't like me anyway. I looked up at his perfect face and gave him my best fake smile trying not to grimace.

"I think you should go for it. She really likes you."

Ow. That hurt.

The bus ride was the longest ever. I had to keep up my fake smile and my cheery attitude trying to make myself feel normal. I didn't want to make Kenzlie know I liked Blaze because that would ruin it for them. If she knew then when Blaze asked her she would say no but they were good together. They had all of the same intrests. They had all of the same classes. I'm sure that the would work out perfectly fine.

I back at Blaze and Kenzlie. They were laughing and flirting. They truly were cute together. They would be a great couple. I felt happy for Kenzlie, how she just moved here and Blaze already likes her. I really was happy for her truley, honestly, I swear I was happy for her. But I couldn't help the tear that escaped out of the corner of my eye. It hurt. I turned back around rummaged through my bag, looking for something to do.

I jammed my noise blocking earphones in trying to drown out the world. I wanted everything to vanish and I wanted to pretend like none of this ever happened. Music blasted through my earphones as I closed my eyes, erasing everything from my mind. Music had that effect on me. Everything seemed to just wash away. Everything just evaporated into thin air whenever I was with music.

Everything evaporated as I drifted off into my own little world as Avril Lavigne blasted though my earphones.

"Can't help it if I space in a daze

my eyes tune out the other way

I may switch off and go in a daydream

In this head my thoughts are deep

But sometimes I can't even speak

Will someone be and not pretend,

I'm off again in my world"

I felt someone's hand on my shoulder and I turned to look at Blaze. I gave him that yes-what-the-Hell-do-you-want-with-me look and he sat next to me pulling out my ear piece. I turned away and closed my eyes again trying to ignore him. I didn't want to really talk to him. I wanted to clear my mind.

"What's wrong? Don't tell me nothing's wrong. I know something's wrong. Don't lie to me." He could tell that something was wrong but he couldn't tell that I liked him. Come on Blaze. I thought you knew me better than that. I glanced at the window and saw that we were approaching the school. I would be walking home like always I got my stuff and a pen and a notepad from inside my bag while I stuffed my iPhone with my headphones back into it. "You want to really know the reason?" I muttered.

"Yes!! I-" Blaze started but was cut off by the jolts of the bus stopping.

I smirked and reached around him to hug Zel and Conner as they got off the bus. I stepped over him as I hugged Kenzlie and Melanie telling them to call me and I'd see them Monday. "Okay then." I said to him then turning around quickly.

I got off the bus hauling my luggage behind me walking briskly along the paved walkway. Once I reached an area that wasn't so crowded with kids I stopped and started scribbling on my notepad as fast as I could with legible handwriting until Blaze got to me.

"You hold that." I told Blaze not even looking at him while I scribbled and started to walk. By the time we got just a block away from my house, the page was filled and I tore out the page and handed it to Blaze taking back my luggage. "That's why." I said and I turned and walked off to my house. I turned to look at him just in time as realization crossed his face. I smiled sadly and ran inside.

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