I Think I Love You{on going}

Chapter 4: Why So Gentle?

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"Why?

 Do you wanna go back inside?

You have the guts to be treated that way?

Gusto mo ba yun, ah?? Yung binababoy ka?

"Huh! Wala kana bang dignidad na natitira para sa sarili mo?

At kailangan mo pa talagang ibenta ang sarili mo para lang kumita ng pera??!

You're such a crap!!"

"YOU'RE SUCH A CRAP!"

GUSTO MO BA YUN, AH? YUNG BINABABOY KA?"

It struck her for like a hundred or maybe a thousand times. She can't help thinking about it and it seems to pierce her through her heart. Masyadong masakit para marinig mula sa ibang tao. Pakiramdam niya napakababa niya. 

Shit bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko. Masyadong masakit! Pakiramdam ko nasaktan yung ego ko, nanliliit ako sa sarili ko. Ngayon lang ako napahiya sa buong buhay ko. His words must not matter to me 'coz I don't even know this guy. Yet it still hurts. . . . .ang sakit, ang sakit-sakit.

(Funny how the heart can be deceiving

More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by by by

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try)

For the very first time, she felt like nothing more but a trash. At dahil 'yon sa kanya. Sa mga salitang binitiwan niya. Ano bang alam niya? He is just a typical egocentric business tycoon na walang ibang alam gawin kundi ang asikasuhin ang pera. Wala siyang alam sa mga nangyayari sa kanya. Oh yes, she, rather her family may have owe him a lot pero hanggang dun nalang 'yun. He doesn't have the right to say those things to her. After all, she still has her own pride.

Does she have the right to complain? Meron ba? She’s in the club, so why complain, right? At kahit pa sabihing desente ang club na iyon, naroon siya para sa iisang dahilan. Ang kumita ng pera, better yet, bayaran. So, does she have the right to brag about decency? Wala.