If I'm Louder - Niall Horan Fanfic

Chapter 18 - Perfect

We were in the van going back to the house or 'flat' as they call it. Paul was driving. Liam, Danielle, and Eleanor are behind Paul. Zayn, Perrie, and Louis after then Niall, Harry, and I in the back. Eleanor was still mad because Louis couldn't explain why his hand was up my shirt. It's obvious that it shouldn't be there even if the strawberries were.

Everyone was laughing and talking except Louis who's still pouting. He decided to "shun" me because of the incident.

I was half listening to Niall and Harry rant about stupid things and half listening to the radio, the speaker was right beside me.

I tense as I hear the familiar tune. Over And Over Again by Nelly ft. Tim McGraw. I break out into song making the entire car silence.

"Uh, uh, uh. Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause it's all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it

Nooo." I sing loudly. Everyone had turned around and stared at me except Paul. He kept glancing at me in the rear view mirror.

I continue to sing, "I can't wait to see you

Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes

That one you had for me be-fore- we said our goodbyes

And it's a shame that we got to spend our time

Being mad about the same things

Over and over again

About the same things

Over and over again

Ohh

But I think she's leaving

Ooh man she's leaving

I don't know what else to do

I Can't go on not loving you."

By then Niall and Harry were singing along.

"Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again yeah

And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it

Nooo

I remember the day you left

I remember the last breath you took right in front of me

When you said that u would leave

I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything

But I see clearly now

And this choice I made keeps playing in my head

Over and over again

Playing my head

Over and over again

Ohh

I think she's leaving

Ooh man she's leaving

I don't know what else to do

I Can't go on not loving you

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can't take it I can't shake it

Nooo

Now that I've realized that I'm going down

From all this pain you've put me through

Every time I close my eyes I lock it down oh

I can't go on not loving you

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can't take it I can't shake it

Nooo

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can't keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can't take it I can't shake it

Nooo

Over and Over again

Over and Over again

Cause it's all in my head." Everyone was singing, even Paul by the end. And might I say... we. Sounded. HORRIBLE!

Everyone looks at me, smirking. "Nelly? Really?" Liam chuckles.

"You were singing too!" I point. He grins and rolls his eyes.

Harry and Niall each wrap an arm around my shoulder considering I'm in the middle.

"We sounded beautiful! Then the others joined in and made it turn to shit." Harry jokes. I giggle. The talking and laughing started again. Then my face went red as I felt hot breathe on my ear.

"You sound beautiful." Nialls Irish accent floods my ear as he whispers to me.

"Nooooo. I sound like a dying walrus when I sing." I smirk, crossing my arms.

"Even if you do, it makes you even more perfect." He whispers.

My smirk turns into a scowl. I jerk my shoulders from his arm. I snap my head in his direction.

"No ones perfect Niall. Understand that. It may not be fair and it may not be you want to believe it but thats life. No one is perfect or ever has been and no one ever will be. Everyone's different, realize that. No ones perfect because of society and you can't change that so don't try to make me believe I am." I snap and his eyes fill with hurt.

The blue orbs turn to a dark gray.

The car went silent again. Niall nods hesitantly and turns to the window, biting his lip.

"Harsh..." Harry murmurs and I glare at him. He holds his hands up in defense and I sink into my seat.

I didn't really mean to hurt Niall's feelings but when you've went through what I've went through with bullies and everything.... perfect is out of the question.