If I'm Louder - Niall Horan Fanfic

Chapter 37 - Decisions

Its good to be back in England. Strange I know.

"Love we need to talk." Zayn sighs as he steps into my room with the rest of the boys.

I was laying on my bed watching tv.

"'Bout what?" I ask.

"Love, we'e going to London-" Harry starts.

I jump up, "WHAT?! WHY?!"

"We live there. We were just spending time over here so that Zayn could spend time with his family. First we visited Niall's family, then Louis', then Harry's, mine. Zayn's was last. Our home is in London." Liam tells me, sitting down on the bed.

"So thats it? You're just leaving me?" I cry out as tears drain down my face.

I look at all of their pained expressions. Louis and Harry looked on the edge of crying. Niall was crying in the corner. His fingers gripping his hair. He was avoiding everyone's eyes.

"Or you could come with us?" Louis croaks.

"AND LEAVE SAFAA AND WALIYHA?!" I sob hiding my face in my hands.

"I know its such a big decision-" Zayn starts.

"BIG?! THIS IS HUGE! I have to decide between my family or my boyfriend and these people who are like my brothers. I can't do this!" I sob hysterically.

My body shakes as sobs rack through it. The tears stream down my face (see what I did there?)

"Please, love, just think about it." Louis sniffles.

I curl up into a ball. My face buries into my knees.

I hear someone start to sob then footsteps.

Then I feel someone rub my hair. "Baby, what's wrong?" I hear Patricia say softly.

"I don't know what to do!" I sob.

I hear her sigh then I feel her pull me into a hug.

"Tell me what's wrong baby."

"The guys are leaving me. They said I can come or stay here but I just don't know!" I sob into her chest.

"I knew this day would come. Just listen to your heart baby." She sighs.

"But my heart says bring Safaa and Waliyha with me and you won't do that!"

"Safaa and Waliyha will be just fine. They've dealt with Zayn being gone for so long. The most he comes for are important holidays now. This was the first time in ages."

"BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT!" I cry.

"Then don't leave."

"But what about Niall and the boys?"

"I don't know what to tell you! Go with your heart!"

Its either break up with Niall who have fallen deeply in love with and leave the boys or break Safaa's tiny little heart. I don't know what my heart says.

I never have listened to it!

I wish mom and dad were here to help me.

'Baby we can't help you make every decision. You're almost an adult. You have to make this one yourself.' I hear someone say.

"WHO SAID THAT?!" I grab my head.

'You don't recognize your own mother's voice?' The voice teases.

"Mom?" I cry.

"Katie are you okay?" Patricia sounded freaked out.

'Baby, you have to make this decision.'

"But I can't!" I sob.