If I'm Louder - Niall Horan Fanfic

Chapter 56 - Take It Off My Mind

I groan, slinging myself down on the couch. One week at college so far... hate it, but if I want to get a good job, I have no choice.

"God, I need Mr.Bear!" I cry out.

Mr.Bear was a panda bear I got for my birthday. Not a real one but HOW AWESOME WOULD THAT BE?!

They laugh.

"And why would that be Frat Girl?" Harry smirked, using my nickname he gave me.

"I have three tests to study for, a paper due by next week, two short stories, AND a project about my family. I'm dying. I just need a cuddle!" I whine, hugging myself.

"Well why don't you cuddle with your lover?" Louis teases.

Niall blushes and looks down. I feel the heat rush up to my cheeks.

"Because friends don't cuddle." I whisper and bury my face in the couch cushion.

"Sure they do! I cuddle with Liam all the time!" My cousin laughs.

I look at him and watch as he hugs Liam who blushes.

"That's so gay." I giggle.

Liam blushes fiercely. "I'm not very comfortable, Zayn." He says sheepishly.

"Sorry." Zayn pulls away.

I get up, "Thanks for the... yeah." I nod, walking past them.

"Well, you're welcome." Louis sasses.

I walk to my bedroom, shutting my door behind me. I pick up Mr.Bear. I lay on my bed, cuddling him to my chest.

I bite my lip. Louis got me thinking, I guess. Well Liam, Harry, and Zayn did too.

Mr.Bear wasn't as comforting as Niall's chest when we cuddled. He didn't smell like Niall. He didn't make me feel safe like Niall use to.

Even if we did make up, I'd never have time to spend with him because college is seriously kicking my ass.

I miss my Niall. My cuddle buddy. My best friend. My boyfriend..... my lover even.

I hate not having him. It's stupid, I know. But honestly, it's like since the beginning of our relationship, for the first time I can't breathe.

I groan and throw Mr.Bear to this side.

Might as well start my papers.

I decide to do a short story first.

Both were really easy.

I start my paper. The teacher said it either had to be a memoir of the first memory you've ever had, a funny time in your life, or you can just write a five page fictional thing.

Like fairytales.

I want to do the first memory I ever had.

I think back. Way back.

The earliest memory I've ever had was when I was around two years old. It was sunny and bright. I was probably about 2, 3 years old. I was toddling around when my mom juwt scooped me up. I think I was playing tag with her. She said 'I got you!' then started tickling me. I wiggled and squirming, crying out for her to stop. She grinned and let me go.

.... she never said how long it had to be.

I look down at my requirements for my project.

'MUST HAVE THE FOLLOWING:

·At least two pictures of each family member

·A few facts of each family member in your household, or extra