The Mafia Boss's Lover(BoyXBoy) book 1 of the dangerous family series

chapter 17

"If you love something let it go free. If it

doesn't come back, you never had it. If it

comes back, love it forever." ~Doug Horton

I couldn't stand the thought of  breathing the same air as him I need to get out. I stormed down the stars with a found confidence in myself. I realized I couldn't continue to rely on him to fix my mistakes. I'M an adult after all I don't need to have him clean up my messes. It was my fault this happened in the first place so it my responsibility to fix this. I still love him but at the moment he is not need. I can't have him distracting me or try to rationalize things. I was just about to open the front door when I heard Williams voice bellowing through the house.

Where do you think your going Riley.

"I'm going out i'll be back when I feel like it," I said shooting him a deadly glare.the only place you'll be going is too bad he said in a demanding voice.

"Look I don't have time for this pissing match right now I said in an irritated voice. I don't want to be around you right now I need to think about where I want to go from here with this whole us thing  I said as I walked out the door."

I hopped on my bike and check into the Silver Stone hotel. I made my way to the dimly lit bar. It had a nice relaxed feel to it that was amplified as the pianist fingers glided across the keys.  The notes echoed into the night like  the soft sounds of distant rain. I sat on the stool at the far end of the bar. I sighed deeply as I thought of what I was about to do would it be the end of our relationship, would he be able to forgive me after the fact, and could I survive in this world if I never saw him again. I was about to risk my life and the thoughts that plagued my mind begged me to do this. I knew in my heart that it was the right thing but I couldn't help but be a little terrified of  what this decision would bring about . I was about to burst through the gates of hell and knock on the devil's door as a willing participant in his twisted game of chess.

when I opened the door to my room I wept into the night and the early morning as I wrote my farewell. Loving was something strange and loving him was like drowning in an endless pool of insanity.

The next morning I quietly crept back into our house this was it the last day I would see him devilish smirk his velvety voice that would whisper sweet nothing into my ear and my last chance to those three little words that rang true in my heart. I sipped into our room without a sound I gazed over Williams sleeping form as the light enveloped his skin in a soft glow. I sat on the edge of the bed and lightly kissed his lips lingering in the warm feel of them. His eyebrows knotted in confusion as traced hod tattoos that were scattered on his body. His eyes fluttered open and my heart ignited as i consumed in this green obs. Tears began to coated my cheeks as I smiled down at him. I could see the love he held for me in that and it hurt to know that it would be a long time before I saw that spark in his eyes. His gentle hands crossed my cheeked and whipped away the tears. I melted into his embrace we didn't need to say anything I just knew he going to be there to pull me out of the darkness and back into the light. He planted a smoldering kiss on my lips that set my body aflame. I watched as his chest rose and fell as his heart burned with desire. I entangled my fingers into his hair as he rolled on top of me not breaking the kiss. Feeling the heat of this body against my was like magic. He made love to me well into the afternoon. I wish I could spend eternity  sinking into his embrace.

"William I know I said terrible thing to my and have been lashing out at you and I just want you to know that I didn't me any off it.  I would understand if you were still mad at said  looked at him with anticipation ."

"Riley if you don't know by now that I will love you no matter what you do the you a fool," he said before placing a passionate kiss on my lips.

" I also said thing that were unfair to you and i'm sorry would you join me for a candlelit dinner as an apology my love," he whispered in my ear.

As if on cue my stomach growled I could feel the blush creeping onto my face.

"All take that as a yes," he said smiling.

The rest of the day we spent enjoying each others company.

It pained me as our time together began to slip away . could not shed anymore tears over this I've made up my mind and I will not fail. I'm sure he will understand I thought to myself as I got ready for bed.  But sleep was the farthest thing from my mind. when I was sure he was asleep I slipped out of his grasp and placed the note on his night stand. I took one last longing gaze at him before slipped out into the darkness of night .