Story Of My Life

Good or bad friend?

Yesterday my best friend called me mutual friends with my crush. So I said so nothing. And she said yes. She agreed to the fact that I am nothing to him. I'm not mad at the fact that I could possibly ne nothing to him but the fact that my best friend agreed to it. She always put me down. Isn't a best friend suppose to say like "he totally wants you" not that you'll be nothing to him or there never will be. She akways says that I'm the loser of the school but I'm also the loser of our grouo of friends and that she's the popular one in the group. Does she not understand that that hurts. Being called the loser of your group of friends amd school by your own friens hurt it hurts a lot. She doesn't even comfort me when I need it. She's always saying so or I don't care or whatever. I don't have a true person that will listen to my feelings. I feel so alone. There's peoole around me but theres no one there for me. I want a friend so bad that will acourage me and I can be close to and tell every thing to that will actually care. Not a friend that puts me down and never true talks to me and doesn't care about my feeling. I had a friend that care but then she stabbed me in the back. Writng these out on here is the closest thing I have to having someone read them amd get out of my system.

11/3/2015