Story Of My Life

16, Pregnant and Divorced

I had a dream that I was pregnant and had gotten married but he was already divorcing me. I wasn't even that pregnant. I was so upset in that dream. I was at like a baby raise money for something event. And I was upset because I was already divorced at 16. And I was pregnant. And I just was freaking out. Then I was at this one booth that had this person with a pen that made a hologram of a baby growing (that was really cool) but I started to freak out again and cry because I was pregnant at 16. My dad and I went home and he tried to calm me. I stopped crying and said I can give the baby my last name. (I'm super obsessed with my last name.) And then my dad told me ill be an amazing mother. Then I started crying again because my mom has basically totured me by staying around but always leaving to her other children that are in there 30s and she never took care or even showed that she loved me. And I was crying because I didn't want my baby to ever feel what I felt growing up. Then I woke up.
That dream just freaks me out and makes me feel so emotional. I would never beable to handle getting pregnant at this age or any age soon. I want to be a dentist. I still have like 9 years left of school. I can't get pregnant.... not that I'm going to because I've never even had a boyfriend sooo. I'm okay. But I have those freak outs when my preiod is late. I freak out that I'm the next mary going to have the next Jesus.

07/13/2016