Rebel At Heart

Chapter 9: Well That Was Unexpected

I started walking back to the dorms. The late May air felt nice on my skin. It had been a few months since I returned and everyone had stopped asking questions. I looked up and Raini came over to me.

"Hey!"

I nodded at her.

"What's wrong? You haven't been yourself lately."

I shrugged.

"I don't know. I've been bitchy to everyone."

"Has your period been normal?"

"Not that it's any of your business but yes it has been normal. I've had cramping for the last few hours. Nothing I can't stand though. I don't have some weird disease."

She shrugged.

"It's obviously just period moodiness. You'll get over it. Just tell me if you need anything. I'm going out to meet Matt. He and Trenton are heading to a strip club. Apparently, it's all men tonight!"

I laughed.

"Sounds fun. While you'll be watching men rub their dicks in people's faces, I'll be studying for that math test tomorrow."

She smiled.

"Have fun with that. See ya!"

I had to give it to her. She was always so happy and cheerful. She hadn't bothered me much since her and Matt have grown closer. I started my walk up again and Blake interrupted me.

"Where are you going?"

"To study for a math test I'm going to flunk tomorrow."

He laughed.

"I'll help you. You're not going to fail. I'll follow you."

"You'll follow me anyway."

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"It's hopeless! I'm never going to get what this shit is. I suck at math and that's it."

He shook his head and took a sip from his soda can.

"You aren't going to fail. I'm here to help you."

I stood up.

"You're going to have to wait a minute. I have to pee."

"Fine."

I smiled to myself as I walked out to the bathroom. I opened the door and went to a stall. I quickly did my business and flushed. I washed my hands and went to dry them as a period cramp took over me. I bent over. It hurt like fucking hell. Worse than the ones I had been getting all day. It passed and I stood up. I wiped my hands on a paper towel. I threw it in the garbage and another cramp took over me. It was more intense and an unbearable pressure built up down there. I felt something coming out so I went into the bathroom stall. I pulled my pants down, checking.

"Shit!"

A head. There was a head coming out of me. I could already see it. I knew it was the Thomas's or one of the other's baby. I couldn't bear the thought of it. I pulled my pants up and walked out of the bathroom, I hurried past my dorm room door, which was open. Blake looked up when I ran by. He didn't realize it was me until I was already halfway up to the roof. I opened the door and looked out around me. The busy street and Schiff's was to my left, the empty paths below me. I stood at the edge. It was all very peaceful. I felt another contraction that nearly sent me over the edge. When it ended, I stood up. The head was still there, making it all real. The door down below opened and I heard voices.

"Boston? Where are you?"

"Bos! Get over here! Where the fuck are you?"

Dammit. Why couldn't Kimmy and Blake leave me alone for once? I looked down and took a deep breathe, stepping closer to the edge of the roof. I heard the harsh voices down below. Kimmy and Blake were arguing. The walked over into the grass and started looking around. I stood at the top of the building frozen with fear. I held back on pushing. I wasn't going to have a baby. I wasn't. I just couldn't bring the child of a rapist into the world. I couldn't raise it either. I closed my eyes just as they spotted me.

"Boston! What are you doing up there?!?!"

"Holy fuck! Call 9-1-1!!!"

"Get her down, Blake!"

"I don't know how!!!"

Tears started to stream down my face. I tilted my head back and looked up at the sky. The stars above me sparkled in the moon light. I spoke three words before I stepped out. The three words meant to be my unrecorded final words.

"I failed you."

With those simple words, I was plummeting towards the ground below.