The Little Salvatore

Chapter 29

Lillian's POV

It's great to be back home with Kol. I love him. I really do. I just wish that, everything had been... Different, you know? Like.... None of this happened. There's times where you wish... you wasn't born but then there are times that you are happy to be born. Your life is split into two. The dark side and the light side. I look at Kol who is asleep and smile but then frown remembering how... How fragile he looked when I came in. It's my fault that he is so weak. It's my fault that all this happened. I wish that Kol just stayed away from my fat, ugly ass. I hear a growl and see Kol awake with his eyes pitch black.

"You aren't ugly and you aren't fat. None of this is your fault." He growls out.

"But it is my fault and you know it Kol! Don't try to convince me otherwise!" I shout sobbing and he goes to soothe me but I back away from him into a corner.

"This isn't your fault. Please. Don't believe whoever told you that." He says with pleading eyes.

"This is my fault! You know it is Kol! Just.... Just stay away from me!" I sob and run out of the house and just run and run and run and run until I just.... Stop. I look up and see that I'm at my friends' graves.

"Why is everything my fault? Why do I always seem to fuck everything up? Why was I even born? You guys are dead because of me. This is all my fault. It hurts. It hurts so much that I was the reason that everything goes wrong. Please... I don't know what to do anymore." I sob to the stones. I feel a hand on each shoulder and I gasp standing up and facing the people, only to gasp again.

"No. There's no way." I repeat.

"Li. Calm down. We asked people on the other side to let you be able to see us." One of them say.

"Lucy... I miss you. I miss you as well, Alex. I don't know what to do. I wreck everything." I sob again.

"HEY! You do not wreck everything! What happened to you after we were gone?" Alex says shaking his head.

"I changed so much. I can't live any more. I want to be with you guys. You drowned and died because of me." I sob.

"This wasn't your fault, Li." Lucy says and hugs me.

"So how has Kol been?" She asks after we pull away.

"You've been spying." I say chuckling.

"Well duh. Obviously I'm going to spy on you. You're my best friend. The amount of times I wanted to slap you silly was unbelievable." She says chuckling slightly shaking her head.

"She did a few times but you never would have felt them. We missed you, Li." Alex says.

"Whatever, Alex." Lucy says rolling her eyes. I smile at them. They really were my bestest friends.

"Anyway, why are you here and not with this Kol guy?" Lucy asks.

"Because I told him to stay away from me and I ran and I'm glad I did." I said looking at them and saw them looking at eachother with sadness but admiration. They're together. Of course.

"You should really go back, Li. Kol needs you." Alex says.

"Yeah. Needs me to stay away. You can't change my mind." I say and turn away from them. I shed a few tears but quickly wipe them away.

"It's ok to show a little emotion Li." Lucy says.

"Just... Just go. Please. I don't want you here right now." I say.

"No." Alex says.

"I said go!" I shout and turn. I end up using my powers on them and I make them fly backwards. I whimper and see them try and approach me.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to do that. I feel so horrible. Please don't hate me. I'll... I'll just go. Bye." I say running out of there. I always wreck everything!