Totally Awkward (Matthew G. Gubler)

Chapter 2

Matthew's POV:

It was weird how Stephanie analyzed me every moment even when i saw her with my puppy eyes.

She was totally awkward, she wears mismatching socks liked me,

wearing dark glasses, her hair was blonde and her eyes was dark brown with a penetrant look.

Her beautiful eyes started to cover with tears who falled down into her face, then she wipe it from her pretty face. I don't know why, but the desires of protect she and let her know in that moment someone worry for her was so notorious and then for nothing i starting to kiss her lips, i had a feedback cause she let me kissed her and she kissed me, then i graped her to me and i gave to her another but now more bigger and stronger new kissed.

Then she rejected me with all her strong and she had reason. We started to knew each other and a stranger man started to kissed her.

"So sorry for analyze you all the time, cause this is the only way i have to know how the person is and then reject you now, but we starting to know each other and i don't tell you something about me. I'm suffer depression too, i think that made me a secure candidate to the schizophrenia until to have 19 years old. And now i need come back to my house cause my mom still alone and i want to buy and carry the things to us".

"But, there's not a problem i would help you with your bags and buy to you and your mother food maybe for a month. What do you think?"

"Better no cause i don't want your charity, i have all the money who needs my mom and i".

"But, is not charity i want help you cause you and your mother suffered a lot and i want to be part of your life like your friend or even more your boyfriend if you let me".

"Oh Gosh, thank's for your help i take your offer to be part of my life and buy things to us. But, for now i only need a friend maybe a best friend who crushed in love to me and don't worry i feel things for you too and i think i'm in crush to you but i need take care of my mommy and finish my PHD of Neuropsychiatry. Remember i'm just only a teenager girl who have 16 years old and you're a man who have 33 years old, you're more bigger than me for 17 years old".

Stephanie's POV:

I accepted his offered to be my friend and helped me with bought the foods and the other things and carried to my house.

I told him about the great diference in age we had cause he had 33 years old and i have 16 years old, the diference was in 17 years old.

Meanwhile i stilled thought about all of this he asked me something.

"What food do you want to buy for you and your mommy for a month? maybe some vegetables like carrots, celery, tomatoes, avocado, cabagge fruits like pears, watermelon, pineapples, coconuts, kiwis, etc".

"Yes, buy to us cereals, vegetables, fruits all you think we can need please, but not to much cause is your money and i don't want to be desconsiderate with you".

"No, you're not desconsiderate and i want to do that with all my heart cause is a pleasure to me do this for you".

"T-thank's a lot Mat. Can i tell you Mat?" - i asked to him.

"Tell me how whatever you want". - He told to me - "and if you want to tell me Mat, tell me from this way".

"T-thank's Mat for everything, i really appreciate all you did for my mommy and me".

Finally Mat bought me a lot of food, vegetables, fruits, cereals, yogurth, cheese, ham, jelly, jam, juices, milk, coffee, tea, etc.

And he bought things to ate too and i told him whatever day if he want to go to my house he is gonna be a welcome person, cause i really appreciate this moments and thoughts out of my problems and the worries for the life.

He really was a gentleman, kind, handsome, atractive and sincerelly a good man who need someone to be part on his life, but for now i couldn't cause my parents had one child, this was me and nobody would take care better my mommy than me.

I was her sunshine and she needed me a lot, my company, the books i read for her, cause i was someone who really worry to her and her problems and nobody can seperate us. Nothing can make her back to the real life cause this disease distorsionate the reality and she hear voices of persons who only live in her imagination.

She only have to me and i only have to her; the woman who was pregnant of me and brought me to the life, and really i was live a diferent life to the others childs who had both of his parents not like me and no one of his parents suffered schizophrenia like my mommy and yeah she suffered a lot.

Meanwhile i was thinking i don't know why but in a moment i stilled with him i started to thought in loudly voice.

"Poor mommy maybe if i wasn't exist, she would have a better live and she didn't interrupted her dosis to Rispiradone (Risperdal) to bring me to life". - And the tears falled down on my face again and until i noticed Mat started to wipe them and kissed me again on my lips in a furiouslly way but i didn't rejected him in fact i loved the way he worry to me and his protective way to treat me.

He started to said to me - "No, don't thinking like this cause cause you're a big support to your mommy, you're a lovely and a beautiful person who deserve love and care for the people especially for your mommy and the persons who loves you like me".

His words made me felt much better, obviously i don't have a patern male figure and he was the most person nearly me and my only friend. Finally i told him i a lovely way.

"I accept to be your girlfriend cause the supported you gave me i never thought i was found and never for a lovely stranger who really worry for my mommy and me". - And then i kissed him in a softly way and take his beautiful and bigger hand.