Totally Awkward (Matthew G. Gubler)

Why You Still Love Me And Stay With Me?

Stephanie's POV:

I have a lot of fever appart of all the others things, i feel the hand of the Dr. applied to me a paracetamol and erythropoietin syrenges, then he gives to me natural medicines like melissa, kaloba, ignatia and others types of medicinal plants who help me with my recovery and then my beauty kiddo, the light of my life start to wash my teeths to prevent the loose of them.

Obviously the only way to eat was an IV, cause i'm still unconscious and then the Dr. puts me a probe in my arm to feed me for it.

Then i start to awake about 7 hours later with thirsty a lot of it, the Dr. put over my eyes artificial lacrym and then he calls to a nurse. They talks with Matthew and ask him if he can get out of the room cause they're gonna wash all my body in special my intimate zone. After that Dr. Adrien Mckay put in my other arm an IV saline solution for the dehydrated, the nurse wash my complete body and put me in my genital a lubricant for the dried.

It is so humiliate..., thank's Gosh my lover, my future husband is doesn't here, cause with him it could be more embarrase.

When the nurse applied it, i remember when i was raped for my ex-boyfriend Ariel and i begin to feel hesitate, i start to sweat a lot and all blured infront of me, my stomach is hurts me so much, like i have a mixer in it and then i start to puke only gall cause i don't eat anything.

Dr. Mckay injected in my arm a antiespasmodic for the vomits, an a sedative syringes for make more easier the work of the nurse cause i yelled a lot "Mat help me, the nurse wants rapes me please!!!!"

And inmediatly i feel the sensation of the sedative syringe in all my body and then about 15 minutes i sleep.

My babe runs by my side, kisses my dry lips and squeezes my hand in a lovely way.

Before sleep i ask to him, "Why you still love me and stay with me?"

"Aaaahh Stephy you don't understand get? I love you my child, you drive me crazy cause you're the most important person in my life, anything and nobody even you could separate me from your side".

"Even me? Are you sure? If i can't have kids you gonna still love me?"

"Of course my babe, we are gonna adopts all the kids you want".

"Thank's, thank you so much, i really appreciate all you do for me".

I try to cried but i couldn't finally, i feel a dryness tear rolls from my right eye, he wipes it from my face and i starts to sleep.

I'll begin dream in one of my dreams who always surrounds me, from one of recent illness is about the catalepsy.

I sleeping in my house and then the catalepsy appears and attacks me, i'll be in a catatonic state, my pulse and my heartbeats even notice and my façon (face) turns pallid like a ghost, i can't do anything.

Then my mommy and my love Mat make me a funeral and they put me in grave, they make a big deep dig on the land, they depositate in there very carefully and cover it with a lot of earth after that they let me here. But 5 hours passed and i begin awake, i'll be in a box or tomb, i'm feel desperate, hesitate, i start to yell with all my strong 'I'm alive!!! please get out me of this place... hey over here please. I'm not death please someone help me!!!"

With my nails i try to break the tomb but it was impossible.

I screams, kicked and finally bite my lips, these were filled with blood and it began to runs down my mouth.

Finally i couldn't do anything, cause this was my sepulture; i start to loose control of my body, i try to scream again but i loose my voice too.

This make me hesitate a lot, i see how my nails, fingers and hands are completely cover with blood, i make a sound like a strange yelled, i try to breath well but my lungs not recieve the air, my heart stop work and i die.

Thank's God was a dreamt but then i feel the blood downs from my mouth and i see my fingers nails and hands cover with blood, my blood.

Mat looks me very worry, i try to talks to him but not a sound escape from my mouth.

He see me with more attention, he looks the marks of teeths and scratches in my body cause i had bitten and scratched whole myself produce from the despair of my dream.

He tries to calm down, holds and hugs me in a supportive way with all the love he has and feels for this little girl.

Matthew's POV:

When i see my love in that way i tries to calm down, hugs and holds her in a supportive way with all the love i have for this little girl. Awwwh i feeling die inside for see her in that state, the sadness cover my face for all the situation and i start to cry like a little boy. Then i feel her hand cover with blood squeezes mine, her dry lips cover with blood smiles and try to comfort me and finally she does it.

After that i take of my shirt and i begin to clean my Stephy, her hands, fingers, nails, her body and finally her mouth.

Then i kisses her lips in a passionate way, i grabs her to my body, i take her waist, then i pass my hands over her hips, but i can't have sex with her, not in this way.

I take her in my arms, she holds me to my neck and then she puts her head over my chest. She listens my heart, especially my heartbeats, this relax her so much, like the music for the babies and she begins sleep.

I down on her bed very softly and gently, then i cover with her sheets and her blanket.

I'm here like a dreamer hunter, like her knight, caring her from her nightmares. I try to be strong especially for her cause she needs me more than ever, she's doesn't well not even mentally, physichs and psycological.

But i love her so much, i really love her, for that reason i be always here for my baby.

Then she starts to moves, begins mumble and sweat a lot, obviously she has the same nightmare again, i listen her yells for help, i nearly to her for that reason i can squeezes her hand, then i hold and hugs her in a lovely way.

"Shhh, Stephy everything is fine you're here in the hospital, not in a grave please...listen to my voice. Not damage your body again please, i begged you. Calm down babe, calm down.

Take deeper breaths, i'm here for you cause i love you so much my beauty baby".

Her yells are more harders, i hugs her and hold her the most harder i can with all my strenght. I put

her head over my chest again, this is the medicine cause she starts to listen my heart again and especially my heartbeats, then she relaxs, calm down and sleeps again.

She stills over my chest, i'm fear for her, really i feeling die inside again.

She's so smarts and beauty, my heart always breaks when i see her suffers over and over again.

I'll hope the Drs. find the cure of her problems, maybe is necessary change her to another hospital more better than this.

I feel how the tears rolls down on my face again and drops over the Stephy's face.

I grabs Stephy to my body again, i hugs and holds her with all the love i have.

Finally the tired win and i start to sleep with my beauty lady, the love of my heart.

The person who always believes in me is so kindness, gently, so generous, always be worry for others especially for her mommy. Now is time to take her place and worries for two persons my beauty Stephy, the love of my life, the only breath who make me feel well and strong like a drug or medicine for an illness and her mommy Dinah Raid.