Eternal Love

Oh Shit

"Don't worry to much its just a vomit bug I promise," said the Doctor at the local GP in town.

"Thank goodness for that," I said whipping imaginary sweat from my fore head.

"But I was just wondering if you would like some good news, something to brighten your day," said the Doctor and I just gave him a sideways glance before slowly nodding, "you may have already known this but you are pregnant," he kind of looked at my as if waiting for me to yell something back at him, claiming that it cant be true.

In a strained voice I questioned, "How far along am I?"

"A few months give or take, hard to tell with out an ultrasound," I nodded slowly getting up.

"Thank you for your time today Doctor, I'll just wait out this bug eh?" and he nodded. I walked out the door as if in another body. I felt like and alien in myself. I couldn't be pregnant, I mean it wouldn't be impossible, I mean it could have been anywhere from the honey moon till just last week. I walked over to Brooks who was sitting in the waiting room. I couldn't tell him this, we hadn't even been married for a year yet, we hadn't even talked about having kids yet.

"All good babe?" he asked coming over and rubbing my back.

I shook myself out of my daze, "yep all good just a virus should be over in a few days," I said looking up at him, " can we please just go home."

"Sure thing babe," he said running his figures lovingly through my hair.

We drove home in silence, I couldn't bring myself to tell him, I didn't know what I was going to do.

As soon as we pulled up out the front of the house I bolted out the door of the ute and straight for the kitchen and threw up in the sink. Brooks was hot on my heals as he pulled my hair out of my face.

It took me a day to get over the bug but I spent the next week feeling norsious. I called hayley the night I found out I was pregnant, she laughed when I told her.

I replied by whispering into the phone as Brooks was in the next room, "Im not really a kid kinda person, I mean I want kids I'm just haha yeah. I mean I lost my dad when I was 8 and mum when I was 14, I mean I have almost been alive longer with out a mum than with one, and she wasn't really around much either, I don't know what to do."

She was silent for a while before she spoke, "You will be an awesome mother, just knowing you from such a young age, you are always putting other people first, your child is going to be one spoilt little baby," she laughed.

Now I'm sitting on my bed trying to figure out how to tell my husband that he is going to be a dad. Maybe I'll just tell him after I get home from work.

My thoughts were cut short then the handsome man that is my husband comes out of the bathroom in just a towel with a tooth brush hanging out of him mouth.

"Whats up hun?" he asked through the tooth brush.

"Nothing don't worry," I smiled as I got up off the bed and walked towards him.

"The lines on your face beg to differ," he said.

Well it now or never I guess, "Brooks, what do you think about having kids?" I started.

A confused look came across his face, "I was going to wait for a few more years, let us be just us before we have mimi me's running around everywhere. I don't think I'm ready to be a father just get babe." He said closing the distance between us and lent down and place a kiss of my fore head.

What am I going to do? He doesn't want kids now, he said he wasn't ready. I quickly turn away holding back tears before grabbing my handbag and leaving for work.

Work was long and I had to put a family's 14 year old dog down and with the stupid hormones raging through my I walked out after wards and broke down crying. I felt helpless it was only when Jackson came over and comforted me that I stopped crying. I think he may have known I was pregnant before I was, he has 4 kids of his own and well I had been over emotional and off colour for a while.

"Brooks doesn't know," I muttered into Jackson shoulder.

"Why didn't you tell him?" he asked back smoothing my hair out of my face in a fatherly way.

"He doesn't want kids yet, I asked him and he said he wasn't ready," I mumbled feeling like a child whinnying to her parents.

"Audrey, let me tell you something from the other side. I honestly wasn't ready the first time either, but when I held my baby girl for the first time, I new there was no going back. You and Brooks will be great parents. I see the way you care for animals the look in your eyes, your child will be the most spoil and well looked after child on this planet."

We chatted back and forth for a little while until the next client came in. My mind was made up, when I got home I would tell him.

I pulled up outside the house around 7 and walked in. The lights were all out and it was deathly quiet.

"Brooks?" I asked wearily as I stepped into the house. No reply, "Brooks?"

I walked pass the lounge room and saw Brooks curled up in a ball empty bottle of whisky on the table. He was rocking back and forth.

"He's gone, he's gone."

My first thought was Oh shit.

AN
Hey lovely readers sorry for the wait... Don't forget to check out my new book The Hunter and the Hunter. It is a new version for all those who read the original version I apologise for that bad piece of writing aha any ways enjoy.