ONE MONTH LATER...
Serenity's POV
I finally let the begging get to me. Colson and I have been back together for a week and it's been going good. Blake and I are fully moved in with him and he seems happier to be able to wake up and see his dad every day. Colson leaves for the next part of the roadtrippin' tour in Europe tomorrow morning so today is just gonna be a family day.
I rolled over and snuggled in close to his chest wrapping an arm around his slim waist. "I love you." He mumbled into my hair inhaling me deeply. I just leaned up and kissed his chin. I do still love him but I just can't say it back, I'm not completely ready yet. Once he realized I still wasn't saying it back he rubbed my back kissed my forehead. "Wanna go get something to eat? Like Denny's or some shit?" "Or we can go make breakfast for the kids together..." I said reluctantly getting out of bed and putting some panties on and pulling his shirt down over my ass. I looked in the mirror and ran my fingers through my hair trying to comb through it. Looking over at the bed through the mirror I saw him staring at me. "Damn you fine." He chuckled snapping himself out of the trace he was in. I giggled and went downstairs.
I made French toast, bacon, and sausage while Colson made his famous cheese eggs. He grabbed a juice box from the fridge while I climbed on the counter and sat down my legs were swinging around and I accidentally kicked the cupboard causing him to turn around. He spun around and smirked quickly walking between my legs. Grabbing the back of my thighs he pulled me closer to the edge and hooked my legs around his waist. "Ready to break the kitchen in or something?" I laughed and grabbed his face pulling him to me and giving him a chaste kiss. We had already had sex in every room but the kids' rooms for obvious reasons. He made a funny face then grabbed me by the throat pulling me into a deeper kiss. He never grabbed me like this before so I didn't know what to do. I felt him moan into my mouth so I know he liked it so I decided to let him continue since he wasn't hurting me. I pulled his hips closer and slid his shorts down and started stroking him while he pulled my hair making my head lean back and he began attacking my neck with kisses. Once he felt himself hard in my hand he pulled my panties to the side, rubbed some spit on his dick and shoved himself in me roughly. He groans loud in my neck and dug his nails into my ass. I wrapped my arms around his neck and moaned into his ear. I don't know why he was being so rough it's not like it's been forever since we've had sex, in fact I woke him up in the middle of the night last night for it. My ass hurt as he fucked me while gripping it tightly using it to pull me close to him like he couldn't get enough. When He pushed himself deeper than he'd ever been before I pulled his hair. My insides felt like they were going to explode, finally he pulled out and jerked himself until he came on my thigh. I felt so confused at how fast he pulled away from me and pulled his shorts back up then sat down and began eating. I watched him for a couple minutes before grabbing a paper towel and wiping his nut off of me and then cleaning off the counter. The whole time he didn't say a word so I carefully walked to the bedroom grabbing a towel and going to take a shower.
K'S POV
I don't know what came over me. I hope I didn't scare her too bad. I tried to stop. I really did. She just felt so good around me, knowing that I'm going to leave tomorrow freaked me out. I feel like we're disconnected and that she's not as into this relationship as she used to be. She refuses to tell me she loves me, the thought that she was fucking around on me ran through my head right before we started fuckin, and it pissed me off thinking about someone else trying to claim and take what is mine. I'm going to be too far away to come home when I have a day off. I watched her limp upstairs rubbing her neck before putting my face in my hands and sighing. I need to make it up to her and tell her i didn't mean to hurt her if I did. Let her know that I'm scared to fuck up again, scared to lose her and my son again. I need to talk it out this time and not fuck up again. "Good morning daddy." I looked up at Casie rubbing her eyes and walking over to me. "Morning princess." I smiled kissing her cheek and setting a plate on the able for her. She climbed in her chair and started eating. "Did you make all of this?" "No, I only made the cheese eggs, Serenity made the rest." "I'm glad she's your girlfriend again because she makes yummy food when I come over." She grinned and took a sip of apple juice. "Daadaa" Blake yelled from the living room. "I'm right here." I called back as he came into the kitchen in his mother's arms. She didn't look at me she just put him in his highchair and set some banana slices on his tray. He began eating and she sat down and started picking at her food. I felt a pain in my chest. I may have ruined her whole day.
SERENITY'S POV
I lost my appetite for anything so I just sat there and drank my juice and watched Blake. My body aches and not in a good way. It took a few minutes but I started eating my food. "Thank you for breakfast Serenity." "You're welcome baby girl." I smiled at Casie who looked at me and then looked at her dad who was eating with his head down. I sighed and started doing the dishes.
A couple hours later we were playing at the park. I was watching Colson go down the slides with Casie and then with Blake and then they all three went together. Them smiling and seeing how happy he was brightened up my day. "Dada!" Blake yelled as Colson started pushing Casie on the swing. I picked him up and put him in the baby swing then K walked over and started pushing him.
"Blake is asleep and so is Case for the night." Colson whispered peeking into our room. I looked up from 50 Shades of Grey and he smirked noticing what I was reading. Setting the book down I turned of my lamp and laid down snuggling into the bed. I heard him sigh and flop onto the bed. A few moments passed and he finally spoke. "I'm sorry I hurt you this morning..." He whispered gently rubbing the side of my thigh. I turned over and stared at him. His facial expression was confused. "If I would've been warned that you were gonna be rough and weren't gonna let me get mine too. Then it would be easier to not be upset with you." I moved his hand from my thigh to his side of the bed. "I'm sorry, my mind was other places... Besides you know I don't know how to be gentle all I've ever done is fuck. That's all I know. It's who I am. I don't have sweet nice passionate sex" " you mean you don't make love?" He looked like he'd just been stabbed."No. I don't." I pouted a little bit. He looked as if he didn't even want to try. "Well... Maybe you should learn."
K'S POV
I wasn't ready for this. I knew that 'making love' was for really really serious couples, I didn't want her to think if I said yes let's to that that I was ready to marry her or other crazy things that go through a woman's head, but the look on her face crushed me. I hate when she gives me that sad face of hers she knows it works every time. I sighed, maybe I can try... For her I'd do anything. "How can I learn?" I mumbled really fast.
"Let me teach you baby..."
