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Chapter 9

I’ve never been to a carnival before and I’m really stressing out on what to wear and all I’ve like for now is a denim short and a black tank top with a cross and some white vans. Because I didn’t wanted to tell my mom I was going out with a guy I told them I was going with Perrie and her cousins and it away its true but Perrie its going to be in her side and me on my date, she’s just gonna be there in case I need an escape. Plus Dan is the one who’s going to pick me up cause I’m going to stay at his apartment.

When I got there I met first with Perrie and I met her cousins and their really nice. I was kind of excited because it looks like fun with all of the machines an arcade. Every time we got closer to the entrance I get more nervous because he told me he was already there on the food court, plus I get really nervous and tend to mess up things, so I’m scared I don’t make a fool out of me.

When we got to the food court I find him faster than I could. He was taking pictures with some kids that spotted him and sinning autographs to. His really nice with kids, he gave them advice and told them some tricks and most importantly to put education first. He looked like any skateboarder ive seen before, some shorts, a tank and some DC shoes but he look pretty hot, I think he even notice I was staring at him.

“Sorry for that” “ oh no problem, I thought it was really nice” “ well, thank you, your pretty nice yourself” I blushed “ I meant what you did for the kids, but you look nice to” we laugh.  “ so what do you want to do now ? “ all this time talking to him I was trying not to make eye contact. But this when he asked me that it was like the date just started and when I look at him his eye caramel ayes were staring at me waiting for an answer. Bu this time his eyes were different like in the party, when you look at them you could see he was happy but at the same time you could see there’s a little bit of mystery and passion but not any kind of passion. It was a rough passion, like when you want to do something so bad but you can and when you do it you put a lot of passion in it and love and caring.

“well I’ve never been to a carnival before so I will let you be my guide tonight” “ you’re kidding me right ? How can you never been to a carnival before? Don’t worry, you’re in good hands” he took my hand and we started walking for the wheel. Because the wheel it’s slow we saw the beach and I took pictures because I brought my camera, and at the same time we got to talk more and learn about each other more. I got to know that he has three sister and his from a place in Germany, he can speak Dutch, Morocco and English. At the end he told me that I I wanted to he could teach me a little bit and I like that, cause I like learning new languages.

After going to the funny house, the roller coaster and other machines that I don’t know their names, we decided to go to the arcade. When we were there we play the water guns, one that I don’t know its name but you need to throw some circles at empty bottles, I was horrible at it but I wanted a stuff elephant, because I love elephants but I knew I wouldn’t win it for how bad I was at it, so I kind of beg him and he won. After he gave me mi elephant, we were walking looking for other games to play and out of nowhere I feel something in the middle of my fingers and it was his hand, when I look at our hand it sent shivers through my spine my skin was all cover off Gosse pumps and when he look at me he had this smirk smile that made me feel butterflies in my stomach and I haven’t felt that in a while for a guy.

After that we played a couple of other games, later we decided to go and walk on the beach while my cousin came to pick me up. We’ve basically have talk about everything and every minute I found out something knew that impress me about him. Like when he says that he use to play dolls with his younger sisters, that really impress me there aren’t that much guys that would do that. We kept walling on the beach and it look like we were getting nowhere beside we couldn’t see anything, the only lights there were some bars and hotels, and the carnival and that was it. Because we knew that going back was going to take some time we stop and sat after a while he gave me his jacket because it was getting cold and I hate the cold and I know you might wonder how the hell did I lived in NY If I hate the cold, we’ll let me tell you it wasn’t easy but I made it through.

I lay on his shoulder for a while and he made jokes about kids that were walking in front of us wasted. And after that I kept getting comfortable, I was basically sitting on his lap. My legs were thrown on his lap and I was kind of in a fetus position because of the cold and he was robbing my legs to try and make the cold go away. And all of the sudden he started telling me how bad was his relationship with his dad and how he wish his dad was different but that at the same time if his dad wasn’t who he is, he wouldn’t have become the person he is. And while he was saying all of those things I could feel the pain in his voice and how sad and hurt he was.

All of a sudden I feel a drop on my cheek and I thought it was because it might rain but then I realized it was him, he was crying. So I looked up at him and while I wipe his tears apart, he got my hand and interlocked our fingers and the next thing I know is that his lips are on mine and it’s like a fire exploded. I can feel his passion on every movement but at the same time a mystery in it that makes me want him more and more every time I feel his lips. The next thing I know his hand is going down my spine sending more shivers to my body but I don’t care because I like it, somehow I like this feeling because it makes me feel wanted and I can feel the passion in it. When were both out of breaths he pulls out and I lay on his chest, I can feel his heartbeat trying to control itself and his heavy breathing trying to go the way it was.

And at the same time he knows he felt the same thing as me, and I know he wasn’t more but there’s something that stops him. It’s like he knows that there’s something more than a onetime thing. And I can see in his sparkling eyes that he wants this as much as I do but like my papa says one step at a time.