Running

Chapter 15: Stay a Little Longer

'Well maybe I can stay a little longer'. I have said those words over and over almost every night for the past two months. Every time I'm with him I beat myself over because I know that I'm making a mistake and I'm only going to end up hurting myself. But I can't seem to quit him. He's my addiction I need him just to get a good nights rest. I need more though, I want to know him. My phone rings and its a call from Nick.
"Good morning Mr. Laudel."
"Good morning, Ms. Levi, how did you sleep?"
Terrible."Fine and you?"
"Alright but I was missing your body last night."
"Well maybe we can get together tonight."
"Actually yes how does dinner and a movie sound?"
Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god! Is he seriously asking me out on a date? Are we going public!?!?
"Uh yeah that sounds great. " I tried to sound calm but on the inside I was freaking out!
"Okay I'll pick you up at six."
I hung up and screamed of excitement. Andrea came running quickly when she heard me.
"Oh my god are you okay?"
I haven't told her about me and Nick yet she still thinks that I called off the deal and haven't seen him since. She can't know that I'm with a guy that I have feelings for but would never return those feelings. She would never look at me the same way.
"Umm yeah. Just feeling really excited that I don't have to work today."
"Okay, well next time don't scare me shitless." She walks out the room. I have all day to get ready for my date I wonder where he's going to take me. Probably somewhere nice so I better dress up. I run to my closet and look for something formal. I can't find anything worth looking at. Damn it, if only I kept the clothes Matt bought me when we were engaged. I have to go buy something. I head over to the mall and look for a dress that will make Nick fall at my feet. Looking for hours and I finally see it: a black strapless dress with red velvet lining. It falls down to above the knee I look at the price tag. I nearly faint. I can't afford this it would eat up half of my savings. But then I think about Nick. I have to do this for Nick. Nick is finally committing to me I have to do this for him.

It took me four hours to get ready but once done I looked like a hot piece of ass. I hear Nick knock on the door and walk over to open it. When he sees me his jaw drops to the ground he's speechless.
"Uh...uh... You look amazing."
"Thank you," I blushed.
"But why are you dressed up?"
"Uh because we're going out."
"Well when I said dinner and a movie I meant take out food and a movie at my place."
No,no,no! How could I be so stupid.
"But now that I look at you like this I think we should skip everything and go straight to the bedroom. He walks in and starts to kiss me. I respond but am about to cry. When he fucked me that night I was unresponsive distant because I knew I've been wasting my time. Nick won't ever fall for me and I can't play his game anymore. That night I couldn't sleep I felt stupid. Why would he ever want to be with a girl like me. Maybe if he knew who I really was and how much money my family has maybe then he would date me. But I can't go back to my family I can't go back to that life.  I'd rather live this one. I look at Nick's sleeping face because it's the last time I will ever look at it.

The next morning I woke up before Nick. He's still sound asleep so I took a shower.
When I came back Nick was waking up.
"How dare you take a shower without me he smirked."
Normally I would blush but not this time. I grab my clothes and walk out of back to the bathroom.
"You need to leave before Andrea comes home."
"I know. Why are you changing in the bathroom? I've already seen everything." He grins at me.
I just continue to the bathroom. When I'm back, Nick is already impeccably dressed as if his suit didn't wrinkle on the floor last night.
"I'll see you tonight." He comes towards me to give me a kiss but I turn my cheek.
"I don't want to see you tonight." I state coldly.
"What."
"I don't want to see you ever again." I try to fee myself from his embrace but fail.
"What do you mean you don't want to see me. You don't have any other choice. You are mine."
"Nick I can't be with someone who doesn't feel anything for me." He keeps looking at me.
"I can easily stay with you just for the sex but what does that say about what I think about myself." I cry.
Nick loosened his grip on me by the shock of my confrontation.
"I gotta get out of here." And with that I run out of the room, out of the building and out of Nick Laudel's life.