BackStage (Niall Horan Fan Fiction)

20. Impassive & Oblivious

(This was an unexpected chapter. I just start writing and this came up. Hope you enjoy and this specially for my little sister heza_bee)

(Jazz's POV)

'Sarah's hot chicken soup on its WAY!!!!' Don't blame me if you knock and spill it on you.

We love Sarah's soups, they are too mouthwatering to even mention. But then there's this staffs' belief that the chicken soup has magical power. Yeah, power of healing. Can you believe it? It was a cold busy morning to all of us as today is the final gig at Vienna. Everyone has tied up with their own work but among them few were having a very difficult time.

'Jazz, Jazz.' Ops. I paused and looked back. That was Ellie. Managing not to spill the soup on myself I quickly skipped to her.

'OMG! Is that what I think it is?' she was on her off duty. And sure, she was jumping.

'Yap!' the "P" popped out.

'By the way, I need to tell you that the 5SOS are coming to perform today. Thought I must tell you.'

'Ahhhhhhh!!!' I screamed. Did I? oh yes I did. But for what? OHhhhhhhhhh....

'Ahhhhhh!!!!' I screamed again.

'So as I thought.' Ellie grinned. We are both Luke girls and just hearing the name of the band made my skin shivers with excitement.

'So, I have a plan to sneak out from the backstage. Are you with me?'

'I'm always your partner in crime, you know it!' I snapped at her because I know it will work for sure. If there's motive I'm there in full action.

'Okey, so--' Ellie was about to reveal the secret plan when a familiar voice called my name on the top of her voice.

'What are you doing there, Jazz? We didn't order ice soup!' Aliya is so gonna have  a piece of my mind today. But what was she saying? What ice soup?

'OOOHHH' my lips parted in a perfect "O" shape as I realized what she said. The soup! For Rachel.

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'Late delivery. I must charge you for this.' Ross made a note to herself. We were all in our room with a worried sick feeling about Rachel. She's got a bad fever and all in all she was having a cold. I don't think she ever got to sleep last night as she came way too late, it was almost sunrise and I got up for the door bang of the room as she entered. She was hugging herself all scoot in, to make herself warm. She jumped into the bed with her shoes on. She always puts her pjs before going to bed no matter what and this made me suspicions. I slowly walked to see her shivering like she was in a freezer for hours. I called Ross and we both removed her shoes and made her comfortable by giving all the sheets we could collect from our room and covering her. Aliya fetched some hot water and wiped Rachel's face. Finally she fell asleep like a baby.

But it didn't last long as she started coughing while we were getting ready for our day's work. And that was when Aliya thought it's better to run to the nurse to bring some medicine. She's lot better now compared to the status she was.

'Hand me...' (coughs) 'my phone, Aliya.' While sipping her soup she said.

'You, young lady must rest today.' Aliya, handing the phone said. Rach does not listen if she wasn't threatened. We all know what's she about to do next.

(Rachel's POV)

'Thanks guys. But I can't bail out today.' (Coughs) 'It won't take long.' I might be sick but I was determined not to get away from my work. I almost got a promotion thanks to Nina and I have to prove that I'm capable of handling situations. Just because my boss ditched me somewhere stay or froze to death moments, doesn't mean I have to jeopardize my career with a lame excuse. Can I? or do you think Caroline Taylor will be sympathetic because, I spent the night with one of my bosses eating and dancing and, just because he forgot that he told me to stay until he comes back so I was furious and gonna skip work?

Yeah, that's what I thought.

'C'mon Rach. You have to listen to us. It will get worse.' Jazz was waving her hands everywhere to expression her valid reasons.

'I'm doing good, thanks to you guys.' I smiled weakly. 'Let's just get going for our wonderful duties which we are much obliged to our Impassive and oblivious bosses.' I got up from the bed with the empty carton on my hand and reached out to grab my oversize hoodie. I look like crap so the hood will do the free makeup for me.

'Let's go.' I turned up with a smile but it quickly disappeared when I saw the three pairs of wide eyes staring at me like I turned into something scary.

'urmm guys?'

'Rachel, would you kindly explain the phrase "Impassive and oblivious bosses" to us please?' that was Jazz. I know she catches such phrases as the second it got out, but this time Aliya and Ross joined too. This means they need the background story for my current mess. Right. Now.

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'Did he really do that to you? That blood sucker!' Jazz was furious after the story. Yes, I retold what happened at the bar and how Niall came and saved me. And yes, I told them that we went out to have something to eat. But no, I did not tell them that he hugged me, cuddled me to make me warm and danced with me for one of my favourite songs.

The almost kissing part was not even in my mind at that moment.

'Which blood sucker were you referring at, Jazz?' I said after a moment of silence. All of us were sitting like a circle so it was like a campfire.

'Well, I must say the guy from the bar is entitled to that name.' Ross said but I know what Jazz really interpreted.

'But the sucker who saved me and finally forgot me was the one who you actually meant.' The second those words came out of my mouth, they made my heart pound with hurt and I couldn't believe I actually said that.

'We didn't mean that, Rach. He's your idol and we respect them too much, because one, they are the reason for our pay checks and then, we all love them dearly.' Aliya went on. 'But that doesn't mean he can ditch you up in a freezing cold night like that.'

I felt ashamed of myself. I have never depended on a man. Not even on my dad. All the men I had and have in my life respect me and they gave me independence. But suddenly I felt I was caught in a rough tide which took me and my feelings far away into the deep ocean, but pushed me back to the shore with rigid rocks and let me crashed within seconds.

I'm not that girl. No one ever got to play with me. But it happened twice at the same day and see how hurt I am? physically and emotionally.  A little feeling can take you a long way and you find that the feeling made you lost in nowhere. All this time, the three friends looked into me as a solid, straight forward girl that they always look up to. But today I feel how helpless I am in front of them.

Niall James Horan. I don't know what you think of me or whether that was a genuine mistake. But keep this in mind. I'm not who you think I am. I may fall for you. I may have feeling more than I can ever explain but you cannot play with me. Because I had a solid hit last night and I've stood up strong. If you want me you can have me, but not for all the wrong reasons. I'm not the girl you fucked all day long while I was working hard to keep you in that place. You play with me and I will definitely make that up to you in a way that you would never have imagined before.