And The Sky Opened Up

Happiness

-Franks POV-

"you haven't asked me what the surprise is" Jamia said

"oh. Uh. What's the surprise?" I said

"oh just forget it, you've an ass lately. You dont even care." she said as she rolled over

I wasn't in the mood. And she clearly wasn't pregnant cause she would have told me by now, regardless of how I was acting.

It was probably something like one of her girlfriends were getting married or someones moving or something.

I started to think of Gerard. Isn't this great? We don't have to hide anymore! Well.. As much.

It was really cool of Sarah to be cool with it. I mean, most chicks would have like flipped out. I know Jamia would have..

She was always fine with the "Ferard" thing on stage ... But that was when Gerard and I were telling each other it didn't mean anything.

But it did mean something. It's always meant something! But it's taken us all this time to admit it.

And now i don't think I can say It enough.

I love Gerard way!

I wanna scream it at the top of my lungs. Because every word is true.

I wonder if Jamia will react differently to Sarah telling her, than if I told her.

Maybe sarah could get Jamia to see her point of view.

Ha! I doubt that.

Kay. Fuck this. I can't sleep.

I got up and walked out into the hall. I held my breath to listen if I could hear anything coming from Gerards room. There wasn't any noise coming from Gee's room, but There was certainly noise coming from Mikey's room.

Haha, nice mikes.

I wandered further down the hall to Kat's room. Her light was still on.

I knocked to come in.

She was in her jammies, and playing on her computer.

"You realise it's like, 4 am right? " I Said

"yeah, I don't really sleep. I just take several naps" she said

"I'd die without my sleep. But I don't seem to be getting much of it lately" I said

"so your slowly dying?" she said with a chuckle.

"pretty much" I said

"so, what's wrong Frankie. Why are YOU up at 4am? And you can't use my excuse" she said

"its complicated" I said

"your a complicated person, Frankie. But I'm reading you loud and clear. Just try me" she said

So I did. I told her everything. Well, almost everything, I thought for her sake I'd leave out our little episode in bandit's room.

I told her I've loved Gerard since the first time I saw him. I told her he loves me to. I even told her sarah's supported us.

"that sounds like sarah" she said

"she's amazing" I said

"she really loves him, but she talkes the world of you" she said

"..what?" I said

Sarah really likes me? She doesn't really talk to me very much.

"She talks about you all the time. Like how sweet you are, how she's glad your always there for Gerard, and how just overall how 'amazing' you are. Especially with Bandit" Kat said

"I honestly had no idea" I said

"why don't you talk to her more? She's a cool person, Frankie" she said

"I already knew she was cool. But even more so now" I said as I left Kat's room.

I went into Gerard and Sarah's room.

"Mummieh, Daddieh, I can't sleep" I said

"Frank?" Sarah said

No response from Gerard. Wow he sleeps like a log.

"Yeah, it's me" I said

"can't sleep?" she asked

"not a wink" I said with a sigh.

"wanna grab a coffee.... Or something stronger?" she asked

"as good as booze sound, I think I want some coffee" I said

"okay" she said

We wandered into the kitchen and she made us coffee.

"Your sister Kat is really cool" I said

"thanks!" she said

Sarah's white sleeping shirt was a little see through, revealing her black Lacey bra below.

It felt weird, that I knew what she looked like naked, but she didn't knew. I mean, I kinda HAD to look at the picture when Gee handed me the picture that Blake took.

She still didn't know that we "took care" of Blake.

I wondered if Gerard would ever tell her. Would she be mad?

Sarah was really pretty. I mean, I've always found her good looking, but tonight I'm strangely attracted to her.

"Is my hair messy or something?" she asked

"no, why?" I asked

"cause your staring at me" she said with a little laugh

"sorry" I said

"I think it's cool that you and Gerard are finally figuring things out" she said

"thank you for letting us figure things out. but, why are you so understanding?" I said

"I don't want him to be unhappy. I could tell he was unhappy. And now he's happy now. Because there's less in the way of what he wants. You." she said

I didnt know what to say to that. It took my breath away. Or maybe it was just her in general that took my breath away.

Was I falling for my man's girl?

Even that sentence sounded messed up, let alone the reality.

But seriously.. Was I falling for Sarah?

What about Jamia? I was losing feelings for her rapidly. And that bugged me.

I didn't want to loose feelings for her, but I was. Cause I wanted Gerard. And everything was so complicated, and now, Sarah? If I like her too, my life would be 100% complicated.

Mental list of complications:

Gerard 50%

Sarah 10%

Jamia 35%

And to top it all off I think I'm starting to have a drinking problem. 5%

"thank you" I said quietly to Sarah.

"stop saying thank you!" she said with a giggle.

"you make him really happy" I said

"I know I do, but I don't think you realize how happy you make him too" she said