And The Sky Opened Up

Say It!

-Sarah-

Gerard insisted on taking Frank out of towm for one on one time. Not dirty time, but healing time.

Jamia really fucked frank up, and Gerard was left to pick up the pieces.

Gerard also didn't want Frank aroud Bandit or the twins in case he snapped.

Before Gerard left he mentioned Frank found a pregnancy test in the garbage.

Frank thought it was Jamia's.

I didn't have the heart to tell Gerard it was my test.

I didn't know how to tell him.

All I knew, was I was pregnant with his baby.

I was in love with the idea of being the mother of his child. Not just taking care of Bandit.

I went out to the barn with Alyssa, and I was going to tell her I was pregnant. Because let's face it, she was my best friend.

She rode Aullie and I rode Satine.

I couldn't find the words to say. But how hard could it be to say two words? 'I'm pregnant' didn't seem too hard to say, yet I couldn't spit it out.

I hadn't even said it out loud yet.

I was just about to finally say it when a Bandit's cat 'furball' ran out of the bushes and scared Aullie.

Aullie probably jumped about 10 feet high, and 20 feet over sideways. And then took off running full out towards the barn. In the process of trying to escape the cat, Aullie tripped, scaring himself yet again, and let out a buck, as if to say "fuck this shit, I'm outta here".

Alyssa went flying and landed on her ass.

"stupid cat" she muttered.

I trotted after Aullie and grabbed him.

Alyssa got back on him and starting calming him down.

I finally plucked up the courage to just tell her.

"I'm pregnant" I said

Wow that felt good to say.

She stopped Aullie.

"Does Gerard know?" she asked

"No.." I said quietly.

"Sarah.... He deserves to know" she said

"I know! But I don't know what he's going to say! What if he doesn't want the baby?" I said

"Are you okay?Gerard Way. the goregous lead singer of my chemical romance. Is YOUR boyfriend. And now the father of your unborn child. And your worried about what he'll think?" she said

"yes.. You know why? Because I keep telling myself I'm going to wake up from this dream and go back to my miserable old life without Gerard, and you, and Satine, and bandit, and this baby" I said

"Sarah. He loves you. Get over it." she said

I didnt say anything.

"Tell him" she said

She was right. I needed to tell him.

I got off Satine and put her away and kissed her goodbye.

"Can you manage Bandit, Cherry, Lily, Mikey, Wren, Kat and the horses without me for a few hours?" I asked Alyssa.

"Bandit, no prob. Twins, no prob. Kat and I can chill. The horses are fine and lets face it ... Mikey and Wren won't leave their cave." she said "Go see him!" she added

I kissed Bandit and then left.

I called Gerard on the way there.

"I'm coming to you. We need to talk" I said

"Is everything okay?" he asked, sounding concerned

"yes! There's just something I need to tell you" I said and hung up.

I got to the little motel and pulled in beside Gerard's Land Rover.

I went inside.

"I need to talk to Frank first" I said

I took Frank out to the car with me.

"You found a pregnancy test in your bathroom..." I said

He nodded.

"Jamia isn't pregnant. That wasn't her's. " I said

He let out a sigh of relief.

"your going to be an uncle" I said with an awkward smile.

Frank just stared at me with an expressionless face.

"Y-you and G-gee, are having a b-baby?" he stuttered in disbelief.

"he doesn't know yet" I said

"I'm going to be an uncle!" he said with a smile.

It was good to see him smile.

I hate to see frank hurt.

"you better go tell him" Frank said as he got out of my car. Gerard came out a moment later and got in.

"are you okay??!" he asked

"yes babe! I'm fine! I'm sorry if I worried you!" I said

"well, a boyfriend gets worried when his girlfriend drives out to see him in a hurry and doesn't explain why" he said

" I have something to tell you" I said

"yes?" he said eagerly.

Just say it sarah . Just spit it out. Say it!

"How would you feel if you knew you were going to be a daddy again?" I asked slowly

He looked between my stomach and my face.

"Surprise!" I said awkwardly

I could see fireworks explode in his eyes.

He had an enormously big smile plastered on his face.

He jumped over the middle of the car and kissed me.

"the test frank found.. Wasnt jamia's... It was mine" I said

"I'm so ecstatic! I don't know what to say!!!!" he said

"say you love me" I said

"I love you" he whispered and kissed me again.