Blood Moon (book 2 in Edward's sister series)

10.Thoughts

Everyone though I was at collage, really I was home watching Netflix. Everyone got to get on with there lives grow older met new people, learn life lessons, fail and fry again. Buy I had already lived a life and about three more still looking the age of 16. What was I supposed to do now? I couldn't go to collage, I couldn't have a family, I couldn't grow older. All I can do is sit here and watch everyone I know live there lives.

And I know I'll be back in school in about fifty years. When all these people are gone or maybe in 70 when must should be dead. But really than again I could be dead, lots of Vampires don't make their immoral lives, look what happened to Anthony anyway.

I looked up from my place at the table to see Embry just walked in, he was with Jacob. Jacob being Jacob skipped over to me and wrapped his arm around my neck.

"Look who came to see you Everlasting." He smiled.

"I don't like you Jacob." I stated.

"Sure you do." He laughed.

"Get out." I said rolling my eyes.

"You know you love me."

"Can you just go home." I said.

"Why can you just forgive his sorry ass so we don't have to try and pretend that y'all doing the right thing. Cuz Everlasting you may be mad at him but he didn't really do anything wrong it was a witch get that info your head before he moves on to someone else. Then you'll be mad and break them up only to shut him out of your life." He growled.

"What are you taking about?"

"I'm talking about you." He growled again.

"Well guess what I could care less if he were to go and get a girlfriend or whatever. I don't care understand so stop trying to make me the one who always messes things up.

*Flashback*

"Anthony what are you doing?" I asked laughing.

"What do you mean?" He smiled.

"What's that for?" I asked.

"It's a ring, because I'm proposing." He smiled.

"What do you mean?" I laughed.

"I love you."

*End of Flashback*

I let a tear slip down my check. Remembering that the wedding was supposed to be on August 22 1954.

"What?" Jacob loudly asked.

"Nothing," I said turning from him and brushing the tear away.

What was I supposed to tell them and everyone else, sorry I love someone else but he's like dead and all so we never were married and that's why I'll never marry anyone, and sorry if I love him. Like really what do I say?

So I turned around and said that, "Sorry I love someone else but he's like dead and all so we never were married and that's why I'll never marry anyone, and sorry if I love him." And ran as far as I could away from that house, not wanting to see the looks on Embry's, Jacob's or anyone's face.

I closed my eyes and sat on the damp ground, wish it would all just end. Where life would be easier rather then life killing, why do people or Vampires have to die anyway? Why can't we all just live forever be invincible and unable to kill one another. But life is unfair and we will all die eventually because one day the earth will end, and life as we know it will be gone.