"amelia..." jack breathes out.
"hey jack..." i pause, taking in his figure. i haven't seen him since the party which was about a month ago.
"amy!" johnson finally notices me and jumps up giving me a welcoming hug. i hug back, "hey johnson." i smile.
my eyes don't leave jacks. "can we talk privately?" jack asks as he steps closer to me.
he looks down at what i'm wearing. "i love your sweatshirt." he smiles at me, i smile back.
i nod and her intertwines out fingers, walking us out sam's room. we walk down the hallway so no one will be able to hear us.
he stops at the end of the hallway, it's kind of dark back here.
"why are you here?" he looks down at our hands, and smiles. i can't help but smile too.
"i couldn't do it. i know i should've stayed. but, i just couldn't. that was my dream; to go to college for my singing and make a career out of if." i feel ashamed. i should've never left.
jack looks up in my eyes. i look back into his dark brown ones. i can see a ton of emotions. sadness, happiness, hope.
"i'm glad you're here amy." he licks his lips, parting them slightly.
he tightens our fingers together, giving it a squeeze.
my eye's start to water cause i know something is wrong. i don't know if i want to know.
" i-i need to tell you something. i know that you are going to get hurt by this, and i understand if you will hate me." he pauses, taking a deep breathe.
my whole body goes numb. i let his hand go and look i to his eyes.
"w-what is it?" i wipe a tear away from spilling from my eye.
"i" he pauses, looking at me with so much guilt and sorriness.
"just say it jack." i spit out.
"i hooked up val, right after you left..." he whispers.
i immediately go into shock. i feel like i can't hear anything. just a loud ring. i look at him wide eyed.
he starts to say something else but i don't take it in.
all i can think, is why would valentina do that to me? and andre?
"no." i chuckle out. a waterfall of tears coming out of my eyes.
"this is a joke. right?" i choke out.
"i'm so sorry amelia..." he tries to reach for my hand but i back away from him.
i take a deep breath, "jack," i pause for a few seconds. "don't ever, and i mean ever, text me, call me, or talk to me. again." i choke out.
"wait amelia-" he starts walking toward me, but i back up, trying not to fall.
"no jack. shut up. i thought you actually loved me, and you wanted to do something nice for me. but no, you wanted me to leave so you could fuck my best friend?" i shout. probably everyone can hear.
sam comes walking up the stairs.
"is everything alright?" sam asks. i shake my head, not losing eye contact with jack.
"n-no its not." i run down the stairs, stumbling a little.
i can hear them shouting after me, but i just bolt for the door.
i feel like i'm going crazy.
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[valentina] hey, want to go shopping?
ignore.
[valentina] hello? amy, i know you are reading these you have your read on.
[valentina] answer me amelia! whats wrong? did jack do something?
i huff and text her back,
[amelia] yeah, he fucked you.
thats all i say and then out my phone down.
[valentina] no, amelia. i'm so sorry. i really am... i'm so sorry...
i flip my phone off, knowing she can't see it.
i've been sitting in my bed, staring at the blank screen for hours, crying and telling myself everything thats wrong with me.
[jack] amelia, please talk to me. i want to apologize. i'm so sorry. i know you hate me.
thats the thing. do i hate him? or am i just extremely hurt that my best friend would fuck my first love?
i mean, it doesn't surprise me that jack was sleeping around. but with my best friend?
i start to cry and wonder what i did so wrong for them to do that behind my back.
i never saw val being the type to do that. was she drunk? cause if she was, i wouldn't be as mad as i am now. but if she was sober, then i would be 10x more hurt and mad than i am now.
i start to drift off into sleep. i haven't cried myself to sleep in a long time...
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small edit. i hope you guys are enjoying this? are you? let me know.
i'm sorry i haven't been uploading like i usually do. i just don't really want to write anymore. but i am.
i don't want to leave you guys hanging.
i just zipped this chapter up cause i feel like i haven't uploaded in forever. but i did last night.
anyways, seriously, leave comments on what you think about this book so far. i feel like I kinda just gave up on it a bit. i need inspiration. hopefully i'll find some.
