I remember the intensity I felt
The warmth in my chest
Every thought of you was a beautiful one
I wasn't familiar with being an emotional wreck
Now this feels like torture
All I feel is shame
Most of it is my fault
I'm the one to blame
I'm angry with myself
Often I'm angry with you
All of my bright days have turned blue
I wanna try and then I don't
I say I wanna be all yours, then I'm trying to leave
I'm confused, you used to bring out the best of me
Now you're feeling like the death of me
I'm speaking cold-blooded words
Trying to hit you where it hurts
I used to uplift you and comfort your soul
I'm sorry but I say those words too often
They've lost their meaning long ago
I thought you'd give up on me long ago
But you stuck by me
You never left
You're too good
And I haven't treated you better yet
I said I would try
I said I would change
But those words are pointless
I'm still the same
Love isn't what's complicated
People are
So that explains why you don't understand me
And I don't understand you
We don't look like the happy couple we used to be
We just look like fools
But I'll probably always be a fool for you
I'll probably always be addicted
I'll probably always be the girl who talks too much and rarely listens
My life gets no easier
I struggle in almost everything
And this is just one more struggle to add onto my already crowded plate
But hopefully this struggle is worth the trouble
There has to be a light at the end of the tunnel
Because I've put too much time into this relationship
This is the most important thing in my life
Hopefully we can some day live in harmony as husband and wife
But I'm tired of hoping
Tired of praying and waiting
This isn't the happiness I once knew
This is just crazy
