Cuckoo {Adam Lambert} ✔️

Chapter 64

{Trigger Warning: If you're sensitive to these things I would suggest not reading}

Adam's POV:

It's been 5 weeks without her here. During these 3 weeks I've almost lost myself to my demons. "She's gone," they say. "She's dead and you'll never see her again."

During these 3 weeks the police have done almost nothing. Ever since they interrogated Sauli and found nothing, they've given up. But I don't believe it.

I know she's out there. I know I'll see her again. I know I'll hear her laugh and "terrible" singing once more. I'm not giving up on her.

I roll over in my bed, realizing that I haven't done much at all this week. But what is there to do anyways? I don't have anymore promo and the converts don't start for a couple months.

I decide that I should at least get up and walk around. I stumble into my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror.

I look terrible. My hair is matted in several places. My eyes are blood shot from the drain of tears. Not to mention my breath which smells if death. I haven't drank or eaten much of anything.

I open up the mirror cabinet and an orange bottle falls out. I pick it up and realize what it is. It's my pills I was prescribed when I was depressed a couple years ago. I never finished the dosage cause I felt like I didn't need to. I kept them just in case I ever needed them again.

I shake the bottle and I listen to the pills rattle inside. Should I? The police has given up. My families given up. Maybe I should too.

I open up the lid and dump the remaining four into my hand. I stare down at them as tears start to form once more. The pills bring back dark memories that I've tried so hard to forget.

I take in a deep breath as a tear drops from my face. It lands on my wrist that's now covered in tattoos. Before I tried to forget the past, my wrists were decorated with freckles, scars and fresh wounds.

I begin to lift my hand up to my mouth when suddenly my phone starts ringing. I walk into my room, pills enclosed in my hand. I pick up my phone and I find that it's Sauli who's calling me.

Ugh what the fuck does he want. I'm kinda busy at the moment and I don't wanna listen to his fucking shit. But something stops me. I have  that gut feeling. I need to take this call.

{yep sorry it's so sad right now. And the cliffhanger as well. I've been going through some tough times so this was influenced by it. If you didn't read it because if the Trigger Warning I'll sum it up: Skyler has been gone for 5 weeks and all hope is lost. Adam is very down and upset about it. He decides to take his life until a call from Sauli stops him. What the call is about will be explained in the next chapter.

Well... Hope you have a good day }