Sanity Siphoned

Ch6: Meeting Screwed

Chapter 6

The weekend gave Julienne a much needed break from school and Michael. Thankfully he didn't speak to her at school and they only saw each other when their mothers got together. He hadn't touched her again since that Friday evening. Her mother hadn't been blind to the fact they had gotten along, hell he braided her hair, so when he left that afternoon her mom asked a few dozen questions and then ended with, "He's a sweet boy and you could use a friend."

Yeah right, Julienne thought, Michael Gregory was no friend of hers. They shared some weird attraction and touched each other in secret but they weren't and never would be friends. He'd probably die from embarrassment if someone ever found out about their dirty little secret. That's what she was to him; his dirty little secret to be pulled out when no one was looking.

Julienne didn't mind, she didn't want anyone to know anyway because it would only secure the fact she was a freak, who was attracted to their abuser besides weird freaky girls?

It was Wednesday in the school library when Michael spoke to her again. He appeared out of nowhere and sat across from her during their free period. "Our moms aren't hanging out as much as I'd like. Come over later." He was careful not to be loud and draw the attention of the librarian.

Julienne shook her head and turned a page; she couldn't look at him and risk surrendering her control to him yet again.

"Babe, you're killing me."

Babe? It'd serve him right to keel over and die, she thought it'd be ironic. "I'm busy."

"Say yes and I'll leave you alone." She shook her head again and turned another page without having read the previous one. Michael reached across the table and grabbed her hand. "Look at me." she wouldn't so he tried another approach. "Julienne I will stand on this table and announce to everyone your bra size, a nice full B by the way, and then comes the question on how I would know that."

She looked at him with her grey eyes wide and angry. "Blackmail?"

He grinned. "It worked didn't it? I'm going nuts, I want to see you."

"You want to have your way with me." she said around a frown. It was still surreal to believe anything happened let alone say the words.

His grin turned into a full fledged smile. "That too. So what do you say? I'm not going to push you into going all the way, I already promised that, we'll stop when you say so."

"I say so now. Leave me alone Michael." She got out of her seat and rushed out of the room with her book clenched tight in her hand. She went into the one place she was sure, or at least hopeful, he wouldn't follow; the girl's bathroom.

She went into a stall and locked the door.

It was better to turn him down now before they made anymore mistakes. It wasn't right, no matter how it felt. They were complete opposites and he already hurt her, she couldn't give him any more power to use in the future.

IIII

Of course it couldn't be easy, Michael bitterly thought as he marched up to his bedroom and threw his backpack on the bed.

"Whoa, what crawled in your wheaties?" Shane looked his brother up and down and sighed. "Ok what happened with Julienne?" he didn't approve of their time together but he knew the details. He never turned Michael away when he needed to talk.

"She's fighting this again and I can't figure out why."

"Why? Because she doesn't trust you man." He walked into the room and sat down. "She probably thinks this is all one big game and when you're tired of it you'll go back to hurting her."

Michael rubbed his hands furiously over his hair. "Shit! You're right. So what do I do?"

"I don't know, is this one big game? Do you know what it'll do to her if she gives into you and you use it against her in front of the whole school?"

"I wouldn't do that."

"I believe you but she has no reason to."

"I could've used what happened that first night against her but I didn't. I'm over picking on her."

"You are such a mess." Shane shook his head. "How do you go from picking on a girl to wanting her?"

"Hope you never find out because it's a pain in the ass."

"That wouldn't happen to me, unlike you I'm a gentlemen and don't bully people for kicks." He never approved of his brother's mean streak and never passed up a chance to remind him.

"We can't all be as perfect as you bro so shut up and tell me something useful."

"You want me to shut up and talk?"

Michael groaned and started pacing. "I'm really not in the mood."

"Ok I'll try and help you if you answer one question."

"What?"

"This thing with Julienne, what are you hoping for?"

Michael gave that question a lot of consideration. He walked over to the bed and sat down feeling defeated. "I don't know but I do know I want her around. The more time I spend with her the less it's just about a sexual attraction."

"You like her."

"I'm so screwed."