Kindergarten Love (iKon - Hanbin)

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Author's Note --- So okay this one might be one big cliche and not my best one I admit, but I wanted to tease my deongsaeng a litte ^^< Although I also hope she won't find this... Anyway enjoy and comments and votes are always welcome ^^---

My first friend, my first love- but sadly not my boyfriend. I wish it was different, I wish he was my boyfriend. It had been a few years ago when I figured out that this crush I had on him isn't a crush, I had fallen in love with my best friend.

It's such a cliche and I had to watch him with numerous girlfriends, him always trying to set me up with his friends. There was this older guy who's such a shorty though, then this other guy who kept flashing his abs- no there's only one guy I am interested in and he's off the market.

Right now he was sitting here with his current girlfriend. Things weren't going as smoothly as a few days ago, when they started dating. For some reason I got torn in two- I liked seeing them argue because I wanted him but on the other hand I wanted Hanbin to be happy, even if it had to be with someone else.

"Yah Ahya, stop nagging about it. Jeske is my best friend so don't try to get in between our friendship" Hanbin muttered annoyed.

I can't believe they are arguing about me in front of me, it's a little uncomfortable. Especially because I notice Ahya eyeing me. But the odd thing is that it always happens in front of me, as if it's all because of me.

It's true that we are best friends and know each other since forever, and also true that I'm in love with him but how is that the reason to break up in front of me. It's almost as if he has an arterial motive.

"Guys can't be friends with girls, especially when they look at them like you do. You know what, it's over- I can't be with someone like you besides Kai asked me out".

She flips her long brown hair over her shoulder as she gives us a final look before walking away. That was another cliche if I may add. Breaking up like that and going off with another guy- that's also incredibly rude.

"Sorry you had to hear that" Hanbin says a little awkwardly.

I pass him a piece of my chocolate to cheer him up. "Don't worry about it, if this was a movie then you would confess to me and sweep me off my feet".

"You watch too many movies. Besides you would confess to me first, I mean when we were one you were the one giving me kisses".

He shows me that confident smile while taking a bite off his chocolate.

"Well may I add that I started walking earlier then you".

"Yes but you always walked towards me and then fell on me, ah so you had a thing for me when we were babies" he smirked.

I softly poke his forehead as an annoyed facial expression spreads on my face.

Kim Hanbin, the only guy I know with such big confidence. I always wonder how we are still friends after all this time.

"Yah you always hugged me, it's you who has a thing for me".

Suddenly I notice a little a blush creep onto his cheeks, is he actually feeling embarrassed. The rap king of the school is actually speechless.

I can't but laugh softly at this state he is stuck in. His little pink cheeks, his mouth slightly open and his eyes in shock.

"No, no I never said that".

He is actually taking me serious, what an dork.

"Yah I was just kidding, like you were. Geez you know me for so long but you still can't figure out when I'm joking".

I put another piece of chocolate in my mouth as I watch him unfreeze.

"Who has ever said that I don't have a thing for you though? I mean everyone already thinks we are a couple" he suddenly spits out. "I mean every relationship ends in front of you while you never had one".

"I had no idea you payed so much attention to me".

I put down the half bitten piece of chocolate on the foil. What was he even trying to say here?

I could never confess to him that I do have feelings for him, that I do love him and wish we were an item. But I can't. It would just be so wrong in my eyes, and the weird thing is that I don't know why it feels so wrong.

"Of course I do, you're my best friend remember. I know more about you then about anyone else" he points out.

Hanbin, you should really stop making me this confused.

If only he knew how much he means to me.

"Oppa, you're also my best friend" I tell him. "but I wish it was more" I say out loud.

As soon as it leaves my mouth I want to bang my head against the wall, what did I just do? Why can't I keep my mouth shut.

I keep staring at the chocolate in front of me, too afraid that he heard it and is now giving me an confused look. What would hurt the most is to be rejected by the one you love.

The worse part is that it's quiet for so long. I'm sure he heard me loud and clear.

"Ah Jeske I knew that, finally you confessed to me" Hanbin says amused.

I look up confused to see his slightly embarrassed but amused facial expression.

"What".

"Well why would every ex-girlfriend of mine break up in front of you?" Hanbin questions. I really am not following where he's going with this. "It was always to make you feel sorry for me and one day tell me how you feel. Jeske, I already figured out how you feel about me because I'm not stupid".

Without taking a second to process this, I throw my empty water bottle at him. That's just mean.

"Yah you're my first love. I didn't know how to handle this".

He throws his arms up in defense so I can't hurt him anymore. He should know that I can always hurt him even though he covers his face.

"First love" I question.

Hanbin nods as he jumps over the table to sit next to me. "Please love me right uhu" he jokes.

I just roll my eyes. "How are you my type".

Instead of answering me he lightly grabs my chin to pull me in for a kiss.

"Saranghae Jes" he says softly.

I guess faith has it's way to get you what you want, my biggest wish came true.

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