My diary ( you may read it )

12/3/15

Dear fans,

I'm in study hall now bored and tired but still energetic. I haven't wrote much of my story and I feel bad about it like a lot bad. I wish I had more time but life is getting a bit complicated for me to with stand. I got in a fight with my ex it didn't end well he told me I made him feel worthless when I was the one going through the pain and suffering. There were times when I wanted to apologize to him but I made a promise to not go back. Though that don't mean ignore him my whole life he was important to me.  He has a new girlfriend now and to be honest it hurt me seeing him with her but I'm sure I'll manage.
   I got a boyfriend myself now he's really nice and I built up the courage to tell my parents. They weren't on the same page as me but they'll get used to it.  Christmas is in 22 days I hope you guys are excited as I am... I feel like I should thank my ex( Cameron Austin Dumont) for saying all those mean things to me cause if he hadn't I wouldn't have been this strong before. I'm happier now, I feel great but at the same time I feel as though I am lost and unfocused to what's needs to be done.
   Guys I hope none of you is going through this or have but let's get real everyone has felt this way before. Hurt. Dispatch. Despair. Lost. Confuesed. Happy. Yet sad all at the same time. I want this feeling to stop but it takes time as my friends tell me over and over. I am trying to keep up this charade of complete happiness and total confidence but I can't and I'm scared that my cover will be blown. I wish I can turn back the clock and find a better way to handle this. This is just too much for one person.

Love, Jazmine