My diary ( you may read it )

1/5/16

Dear fans,

Welcome back its been a whole year since I last updated lol. 2016 is finally here and I plan on making it the best. So far I have been in my room waiting for school to come by and then boom .... My new baby cousin was born and I love the kid so much! I spent New Years by myself with no one to love or kiss but whatever right?
      I got a $110 doctor who bed set complete and I fucking love it it's so comfy. I also got yarn and a new play station and along with the walking dead survival instinct best fucking game ever! And I got my shit ton of makeup hells yeah! And my favorite I got my God damn 400 page leather journal which I lust for deeply!
     My birthday is in a month and I can't wait to be 17 years old it's going to rock! I am happy right now but I won't be for very long, life doesn't want me to be happy all the time just yet.  A few more things happened and I want to get into it but nope I won't I got to have a little privacy if ha know what I mean lolol just kidding my secret admirer told me he loves me and I love him we talked a little bit but no worries I won't start anything I don't want a relationship right now.
   I made a New Years revolution and it's pretty big actually ... I want to actually study for school. Yeah I know huge right I never study in my life it was hard and boring as well. So I found ways to make it a whole lot of fun!  If you want I  can tell you them if you too hate studying. Okay so yeah I've been doing really good I have found ways to occupy my time. With video games and shit like that I'm actually good. I also got new headphones which I really needed. But sadly I don't have a music device that actually works. I might ask my dad to get me one but I don't want to cause he has to pay bills we are a bit behind which is good and bad. Good cause we might postpone the moving bad cause we might loose heat or light or whatever.
      I love being with my friends and even though they didn't visit me once all vocation I still had fun. I have been trying to write in my diary here but I didn't really have much to say. My leather journal is being written in for almost every day but I missed one day. I try to make things in order and I try to seem more mature but my dad likes to make me feel like I'm not. And I'm getting very fucking close to bitching him out. Last night he said I can't watch pewdiepie cause it was "non sense" I wanted so badly to fucking bitch at him cause first creepypasta now my bro? Like no fuck you! But it's cool whatever.
         People don't know how to keep their Damn  bullshit to themselves. Relationships are fucked up I got to fix shit and let's not get started on my aunt right now. Ugh I want my year to be great I want to get it done and make it fun. Everyone is getting a job and I'm here being like nah my dad wants me to wait cause he doesn't want me to get money to move the fuck out. Whatever it's cool. I'm going to learn how to ride a bus. That sounds like fun right I'm actually getting out into the world. I want to get out to be free but with barely going nowhere except  the same areas all the time I just find no use for going anywhere. They bitch about me being in my room well let me wonder the streets and a normal fucking kid does and let me find things to fucking do!
     But no they want me in at 5:30 and they don't want me hanging out with people I care about so whatever fuck them, my mom is the only one that gets me most of the time and my damn step dad is trying to be my bio father who is a duche bag. If he wants to be a duche then fine but I don't put up with duche bags.  My workers want me to try to get along with him but the fucking guy takes all that I love. He took my boyfriend. He took my freedom. He took my pride. He took my sanity and lastly he took pewdiepie!
The hell does this guy think he is? Like for real? Well I don't know what to do with him he just pisses me off now. So get this I took an old sock and I got dried corn and I placed the corn in the sock till it was full and I sewed the sock up and I made a heating bag out of a damn sock I had so much fun! Plus I got my sewing needles.
      I think I'm done for the day okay stay tuned for more of my diary I love you guys lets make 2016 the best fucking year ever! Love you!

Love Jazmine.