My diary ( you may read it )

12/18/15

Dear fans,

I'm a terrible person. I for got to write in you for a while now and I feel so fucking guilty.  How could I ever get your forgiveness? I guess I'll make it up by writing a lot today I guess right? Will that make you all happy? Well I guess I'll get started huh? Well last night was both amazing and terrible, first it was a great concert but I was wearing really high heels and it was killing my feet. Even today my feet burn with hatred and agonizing pain. Well I've learned my lesson huh guys? Yeah well those fucking shoes are going bye bye those damn things are death traps.
      My didn't come to my concert like she said she try to go to but hey it's okay. I walked in four inch heels all the way to my house I had to soak in ice cold then really hot water and it felt so good but my feet still hurt like a bitch and it's not okay. "he" offered me a ride home but I had to deny his offer cause I wasn't going to get in trouble. But I swear I wanted that ride so badly but I made it home I cried cause of the pain but I made it home and I ate food and I went to bed.
     I am so so tired I just want to pass out. I went to bed and I slept good I just want to go home and sleep.my next class I'm going to be so fucking tired and I still have to work and I also need to read ugh work is hard but I'll do it anyway. I wish I can go home and sleep. I really want to sleep right now. Just lay down on my comfy pillows and close my eyes and sleep. Yeah that would be nice right now but if I'm going to keep my promise I'm going to have to keep writing. I hope you guys are happy I'm actually doing this!

So you guys know about the updates. On my other stories well I'm still waiting for that first comment to pop up. I'll be doing more of that on some occasions maybe I'll do another one on New Years I mean why not? But no I really would like to help my followers with their stories so come on comment something be the first. And for the second and third comments that I get I am going to just do a shout out for you guys as well but First one gets to have their stories shout out to the world. So yeah that's covered now I am like really tired but I want to keep writing as well. The life of a writer has no end when they do something they love and give it to the fans.
It's not easy you know being really tired and still be able to write I could be sleeping on my desk right now but I love you guys and I am going to write a very long entry for you all. You guys deserve it for my absence so yeah. I can barely keep my eyes open and I know I can type this with my eyes closed but her I got to see my words before I publish so whatever, I guess I try to hard. But if I don't try then what's the point of writing anything right? The struggle will forever be real cause I am like passing out and waking up and then passing out again it's just like wow! Ugh I need a pick me up or something. I just want to eat and sleep and relax. And this weekend I am sleeping over at my little sisters house in Saco and I am going to hang out with her. I missed Zoe and I want to have fun with her cause why the fuck not?
She invited me to a Christmas party and I am so happy to go omg I should tell her that she has to let me know when to pick me up. Well that didn't help me at all lol Zoe you nut don't tell me to come whenever that's not a certain time I don't know what your doing lol crazy chick. Well anyway. I am in second block right now and I am already at 743 words lol yep this is going to be a very long entry and you get to read all my words of my thoughts. Seriously this is light what I'm thinking right now lol I'm not talking to people today there's no one to really talk to.
At least I have wattpad I can pretty much talk to myself and write to you guys and I can read and do whatever till I get bored. Omg I just found a huge zit on my face like what the fuck is that doing there lol! Omg it's fucking huge! It looked so gross I had to pop it I know bad idea but it was so gross! But hey it's gone sorta but I am so cleaning it when I get home if it gets any bigger I'm going to flip. Ok so zits lets talk about zits. One they are fucking gross two they are fucking ugly and three I hate them we all hate them. But there are so many things that can clean them.
Proactive is great but I tried it and it's so oily and to slick I even tried clean and clear it's good but it's rough of sensitive skin but I also tried this other lean and clear stuff that is so great it's mostly peroxide but it's great. And if you pop a zit you can apply it quickly and it'll heal over night. There but I would advise placing a hot cloth on your face to open your pores and then doing the treatment.
Today I am going to be helping a friend with his work cause he is in dire need of my help lol. So I'm going to wait for him and see if he'll show up. I understand that this is confusing but whatever. I'll try to make up names for people I'm talking about. Wow I'm writing a lot just wow this is more than j was expecting but a promise is a promise.

A little reminder remember first person to comment gets a shout out of their story of their choice and the second and third comments get a shout out to. Ok ok

I. Still tired but lucky for me I got food. Yum food I love food so very much it's the best thing ever! Ugh okay I'm awake I just had food lol. Yep I'm ready to go today. I am listening to Christmas music and I am getting in the holiday joy! Hey what do you guys do on Christmas? Well besides open your gifts. I watch tv and I drink tea and I watch the snow but here in Maine there's not really snow right now lol but on Christmas I'm going to wake up and I'm going to sneak outside And I'm going to scream AND A PARTRADGE IN A PEAR TREE outside had walk back inside and watch tv lol. Yep that's going to be my Christmas. I will try to write on Christmas but that's not a promise.
I got a lot to do on Christmas and I won't be able to do a lot with the stuff I got to put away. Though I'm sure all of you will be able to read my diary of course you will I hope you will Lolol. Well I am not sure what else to write and I did keep my promise and I wrote a very long entry for you guys and remember frist one to comment gets a shout out so the game is on so start commenting love you guys.

Love Jazmine