When I Kissed You

Chapter5

One month later...

It's only been three weeks since the funeral.
I haven't talked to Aaron since i slapped him at the hospital and I don't plan to talk to him ever again.

My life hasn't gotten any easier. My whole family is gone, I live with my Aunt and uncle and my uncle is on a three month business trip.
The only thing that's not messed up in my life is my boyfriend that has been by my side for all of it yet I still keep one secret from him.

At school I can see Aaron still look over at me but he doesn't talk to me anymore. Every day after school I walk to visit Miranda's grave until I get used to the fact she's not coming back just like I did for my parents and little brother
but I'll still always think about them.

I was walking to the cafe with Carter after school, his hand in mine as we walked down the sidewalk then he went and held my waist.

As we sat at one of the tables the smell of caffeine filled the air with the mix of fresh baked muffins and cookies.

"I can't believe we only
have four more months tell summer and our graduation"Carter said.
"I know I've been looking at university online lately but I only have six in mind"I said picking up my tea and taking a sip.
"Oh university wow I didn't even think about that"Carter mumbled.

There was silence between me and Carter, I started to think could it be my fault. When I got that text from Aaron I looked at my phone, I ran a red light so was my sister death really my fault.
Across the table I saw Carter looking at me as I felt tears fill my eyes.
I pushed away from the table and stood up and ran out the door. I heard Carter calling my name but I didn't look back.

~knock knock knock ~

Heart bounding, there I was standing on Aaron's porch.
I knew I had to say sorry especially after I slapped him at the hospital. The door swung open and there he was those eyes that hair, I almost fell to my knees.

"Shay what are you doing here"Aaron asked.
"Im sorry, I realized that it was my fault, I was the one who ran the red light, I killed my sister I killed my sister" I cried and then fell to my knees on the front porch.
Aaron grabbed my hands then held me near his chest.
He pulled me inside the house, Aaron picked me up, my back to the wall with my legs wrapped around his waist. His lips crashing into mine, so many things going through my mind, what was I doing I was with Carter. Carter was sweet and caring but whenever I'm with Aaron I feel ecstatic and reckless.

Aaron carried me down the hall to his bedroom and placed me on his bed.
His lips kissing my neck, Aaron's hands touching my body.

What happened that day in Aaron's room was something I loved and ashamed of at the same time but what did this mean for me and Carter, most of all what did this mean for me and Aaron.

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