When I Kissed You

Chapter8

I ran and pushed Aaron out of the way of the train.
I landed on top of Aaron as I rolled over onto the wet and cold grass, Aaron was looking at me with a plain face but I gave him a stern angry look.

"What" Aaron asked.
"What do you mean what, you just tryed to kill yourself " I yelled.
"Why do you care, you have Carter and your aunt and uncle, why do you care about me because I thought we made it clear that we don't feel the same way about each other"Aaron yelled back at me.
"So doesn't mean I want you to kill yourself and don't you think I've lost to many people in my life but no, you were just thinking about yourself, not me not your grandpa who loves you by the way but no"I yelled as I stood up.
I started to walk away.
"Maybe I shouldn't have come and just let you die" I said and kept walking.
"Shay wait"Aaron yelled out to me but I kept walking.

Aaron ran and grabbed my wrist
then stopped and looked at me.

"I'm sorry"Aaron said then but back some of my hair behind my right ear and put his right hand on my cheek then his left hand on my back then started to pull me close. I knew he was going to kiss me and I know I just got back with Carter but I didn't want to pull away so I leaned in the rest of the way and kissed him.

It's been a month and
me and Carter are still together.
I explained to Aaron that we could be friends and hang out and I told him that I'm staying with Carter and nothing could change that.
Graduations only three months
away and I'm so nervous, I don't know if I'm ready to leave high school or what if I don't graduate at all.
I've been looking at some colleges to apply to but I might have second thoughts.

Then next day at school I was standing near my locker when I saw Aaron walking down the hall wearing a leather jacket and black sunglasses, he seemed unstable.

"Are you drunk"I said as I walked up to Aaron and put my hands on his shoulders as he started to fall over.
"Umm, no no no, I'm fine"Aaron muttered.

I pulled him into the guys washroom then boys came out of the washroom because I was there. I grabbed my makeup out of my bag and took off his glasses .

"Look at you, you look awful"I said.

"What's wrong with you, I thought you were worth caring about or maybe love but I guess now we'll never know"I yelled at him.

"My grandpa died in his sleep last night"Aaron cried.

"Aaron I'm sorry, I didn't know"I said and rubbed his arm.

"How could you have known, so as you were saying about maybe loving me"Aaron asked.
"Shut up" I laughed then punched him in the chest.

"Come on we got to get to class" I said then we walked out the washroom.
As me and Aaron walked down the hall I wanted to hold is hand but I knew if I did everyone would see and it would spread like wildfire at school all the way to Carter.
After third period there was a meeting for all seniors in the gym to talk about graduation and when we will be having our gown fittings, I looked around the gym at all the seniors on the bleachers, was this it could it really be, graduation is only three months away and prom is olny a week away.

I held Carters hand but there was this pit in my stomach but what could it be, i was going to prom with the guy of my dreams and I already sent in my forms for some of the collages close to home but what could it be , I just don't know. at the end of the school day i was going to go shopping with Quin and Alyssa but i just couldn't  all  I wanted to do was go home eat,watch netflix, sleep then die in a hole i was so sad and then i went to the bathroom and then i found out why. MY PERIOD!!!!!!!

I know its not a big deal i've had it before but this time it was hitting me like a bloody waterfall.The next I new I had to go to school but I just couldnt get out of bed but I just couldnt. Uncal David went to work and Auntie Laura just left for work. Inside I was dying and my head hurt. I started to crave chocolate yet I dont like chocolate my period just does something to me and I knew there was Davids chocolate ice cream in the freezer down stairs so I rolled of my bed on to my floor, dragged my self by my hands to the fridge, got up and opened the freezer but once I had the ice cream I didn't want to walk up the stairs so I layed on the couch and watched the vampire diaries on netflix.

Once Carter got out of school I texted him a list of things to bring me first chocolate,chips,more chocolate, pop, pizza, ice cream, more chocolate and Mc Donalds happy meal with a girly toy. A few minutes later I heard a knock at the door and I got up and ran to it so fast I slipped and fell but I still got up, opened the door and pulled Carter inside then slamed the door. We walked to the kitchen and I started to eat till my hearts content.

"Want some" I said with my mouth full and handed him a chip.

"No im good" Carter replied then grabbed an apple.

After I was done eating and started to feel fat, me and Carter lied on the couch. I started to feel my eyes close and bye the time I woke up David and Laura were home and Carter was gone.

~Sorry music wasn't working this time~