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Moving On

CAM POV

It's been a month I joined into the basketball team of my new High school here in California. School is pretty good, my classmates are friendly although I'm a nerd and thanks to sport, bullies stay away from me 'cause it's kinda something cool in here.

Thanks to basketball, I got some new friends and they accepted me as fast as they could, maybe because I'm good at what I do. I work really hard and the coach seems to see my development and the results are awesome !!

But there's one thing which noone knows: I'm gay.

Yes, It's my little secret and I think I'm not gonna talk about it with the guys: sometimes they act so homophobic in the changing room.. and it hurts a little  but I can stand, I've been doing it for the last 3 years, so.

Everyday we practice for 2 hours in our institute gym: stuffs like stretching, running, studying the schemes of the play and obviously playing basket.

Usually we are divided in couples, like Kian and Jc, the Jacks, Taylor and Aaron.. and me and Nash Grier. Hell, What did I do to deserve this !? I mean, I'm such a great boy, I study and work so hard, I'm polite and friendly as much as I can.. yes I'm shy and a geek but it doesn't matter right ?!

Well, what I want to say is that Nash Grier is one of the coolest boy in school: he's got lots of fans like "screaming blonde sluts " who follow him wherever he goes; then he's so outgoing and he always makes everyone laugh...except for me. With me he's a completely idiot. A fuckin' bitch. Why ?? Because I'm new at school and also I always stand his stupid jokes, without saying a word. And it's frustrating.

When I come home, I often drawn in my bed and turn the music on (the volume so loud, of course) and cry a bit, whishing and praying the next day would be better. I'm so done of all this shit, I just wanna hang out and live my life like every teenager does. Am I asking too much for ?!?