Save Me

Ch. 26 - "That was a good enough punishment."

*Justin's POV*

Opening the door to my house, I was expecting to find Ryan or maybe even Selena. I was taken aback when I found Alaina standing in front of me, her hair up in a messy bun wearing shorts in a hoodie. It amazed me how she could look so perfect even though she barely had any makeup and probably spent maybe 2 minutes on her hair. 

Her chocolate eyes met mine, showing pain. She brought her attention back towards the ground, something she always did. 

Seeing her in front of me like this, I just wanted to wrap my arms around her and kiss her, but I knew I couldn't. 

"You have some explaining to do," She finally said, surprising me as she walked inside and right into the living room. She sat down in one of the chairs, and I found myself sitting on the couch. It was weird being like this, because we always sat together. 

"I know," I mumbled, "I don't even know where to start." 

"How about the part where you lied to me about your relationship with Selena?" She questioned. I guess she was more upset than I thought she was. "Or maybe I'll just start out saying something." 

I understood she was mad at me, but she didn't have to act like such a bitch to me right now. "Why are you even here if your gonna act like this?" 

Alaina rolled her eyes. "I'm here because I love you, okay?" She sighed heavily, "and I want to fix this." 

"Love you too," I mumbled, "I'm sorry." 

"I know, just tell me what really went on with Selena." 

I didn't want to do this, but I knew I had to. I couldn't keep constantly lying to her, even thought it might be the easiest thing to do. "Like I told you before, Selena and I were together and I don't know, I mean I guess we were in love. But it was all about the fame for her. The attention, the paparazzi, the interviews, everything. She started cheating on me because she wasn't in love with me, she was in love with the fame." 

Alaina nodded, showing me that she understood. 

"And once I figured that out I was so mad at her, and I guess I went out with other girls to help get over her, but I still didn't want to let her go," I shook my head. "I know I was selfish and stupid. But once I found out she was cheating on me too, it made me even more mad and-" 

"Why didn't you just tell me this before?" She questioned, and I could hear the sincerity in her voice telling me that I really hurt her. 

"I don't even think you wanted to go out with me in the first place," I laughed a little bit, "and I didn't want that to make you hate me even more." 

"I didn't hate you!" She cried. "I just wasn't ready for a relationship." 

"Niether was I," I agreed, "but I don't know. I know I was a jerk and shouldn't have done that, trust me, I learned my lesson." 

She furrowed her eyebrows together. "What do you mean?" 

"Seeing you hurt like that because of me," I trailed off, "that was a good enough punishment." 

She nodded, biting her lip, i guessed to stop her from crying. Great, I was doing it again. 

"I'm sorry for hurting you," I said, watching a few tears slip out of her eyes. "I know I should have just told you right away, but you can trust me, I'm not going to cheat on you. Ever." 

"You promise?" She quietly asked. Tucking a few loose strands of hair behind her ear, she finally looked at me, her eyes almost mesmerizing me. 

"I promise."