Save Me

Ch. 29 - "You deserve so much better."

"Why are you so quiet tonight?" I asked Justin, looking up from my history book.

Although he wasn't going to want to answer me, I knew that something was bothering him. Normally when we were doing homework he would ask me for every answer, and talk to me, and we would never get any homework done. But now we were actually working, which was definetly not normal. 

"I just want to get this done, that's all," He replied without taking his eyes off of his book. I watched him scribble an answer down on his piece of paper before looking up at me. 

I sighed, knowing that this was going to be hard. I got up and sat next to Justin before hugging him around his waist. "I don't want you to hide things from me." 

"I don't want to either," He tilted his head up, pressing his lips against mine. I pulled him into me, deepening the kiss before he pulled away. 

"You wanna tell me now?" Looking into his eyes I knew something was the matter, and I wasn't going to let this go. 

"You know how Ryan told Allison about your dad and your mom and everything else?" 

I nodded. "Yes." 

"And you were really upset about it," He continued, making me more confused every second.

"Yeah?" I replied hesitantly. 

"You were crying and everything and you were really upset." 

"I know," I felt bad. He was probably still upset because of what happened earlier today and it was my fault. I should have never even talked to Ryan in the first place. 

"And that whole time, I couldn't help but think that I did the same thing to you." 

"What to you mean?" I asked, still confused. 

"I told Selena," He didn't even bother to look at me. 

My heart ached as I realized that he was right. "But I forgave you, I mean you showed that you were really sorry and-" 

"No Laina, I still hurt you and it doesn't make a difference." I watched as Justin rubbed his forehead with his fingers, trying to calm himself down. "I'm so sorry for everything I've done. I don't even know how you take me back after half of the crap that I have caused in our relationship and everything I've done wrong. I'm just sorry." 

"Justin," I said, wrapping my arms around his neck. I ran my fingers through his hair before kissing him softly. "All of that stuff is in the past now, okay? I forgave you for that. Your an amazing boyfriend and I couldn't ask for anyone better." 

He shook his head. "Yes you could, you deserve so much better." 

Seeing him like this broke my heart. It was normally the other way around and he was trying to comfort me. I never he knew he was like this, especially because he never showed it. 

"No I dont," I replied. "I deserve you, and all of your flaws, and everything else that comes along with you. Your awlful cooking, and the way you always compliment me even though I never believe it, and how your always there for me no matter what..Your perfect to me and want you, and only you." 

I felt Justin's lips crash against mine, sending me onto my back. He crawled on top of me, kissing me with as much passion as he could muster. I kissed him back, wanting him to feel how much I loved him. With his legs placed on either side of me, his hands moved from my hips to my face where he cupped in gently. 

"I love you so much," He mumbled against my lips, giving me goosbumps. 

"I love you too," I replied as my chest rose up and down before pushing on the back of his neck so our lips were attatched again. It started to get heated again when suddenly the door flew open. Our heads instantly turned to the door where Lauren stood, covering her eyes.