Loving Dr. Spencer Reid

'Thomas Merton'

Spencer's Pov

"Reid, come on man. Come out of the stall" Morgans stern voice boomed through the males bathroom.

"I can't" whimpering I wiped my eyes.
"Reid this is pathetic, come on" Morgan practically begged.
"Why are you even here? Shouldn't you be on a plane with the rest of the team? " I questioned.
"Yeah I should be, but instead I'm here helping your sorry ass, now come out of the toilets" he said.

" I just want to be left alone right now, is that too much to ask?" I questioned
"Kid listen" Morgan began
I heard him shuffle along the floor as he stood right outside of the stall door I was behind, hiding from the world.
"I know it's been hard on you, nobody should ever have to lose their loved one Reid but you have to understand that you can't change what happened. It's been 6 months since Belle's death and sooner rather then later your going to have to move on like the rest of us, Sometimes you put up these walls and block us out but you cant do that, not right, we need you kid and when you're ready we'll go get that son of bitch'' Morgan sighed.

I slowly opened the toilet door and stepped out, wiping my nose with a piece of toilet paper, Morgan looked at me with sorrow and pity, neither did I need, not at the moment any way.

''Love is our true destiny, We do not find the memory of life by ourselves alone - We find it with another - Thomas Merton and that Morgan was taken away from me. The one person I loved who I wanted to grow old with, to love and care for was taken away from me, How do could I ever recover from something like that?'' I questioned him.

''We always find away Reid, your world isn't over, you've just had an alteration to your life, Maybe you should talk to Hotch? You and him are going through the same situation, he lost his daughter and you lost your girlfriend'' He looked at me

''Fiance'' I corrected him.

''Sorry Fiance... wait what?'' Morgan asked

''I was going to ask her to Marry me the day she got shot at the Petrol Station'' I sobbed

''I had also prepared a speech for Hotch when I asked him for his blessing'' I added on.

''Reid I'm sorry'' Morgan placed his hand on my shoulder squeezing to show affection.

''It's fine, Don't worry about it'' and with that I swiftly left the males bathroom leaving Morgan behind me with a confused look on his face.