Loving Dr. Spencer Reid

Ordinary world

Belles POV

I sat on the bed with my face in my hands, how could this possibly be happening to me! Me of all people .

My poor Spencer, tonight was finally the night he had fallen off the edge he had held onto so tightly for dear life, I just wanted to be able to get inside his head and see what's going on so I could fix everything and relieve the pain he was going through right now.

"Belle?" I heard JJ call for me, she slowly walked into my room with sorrow in her eyes.

"What's wrong?" She asked
"Tell me how you're feeling?"

I sighed

"I don't know what's wrong with Spencer, one minutes he's fine and then the next he's having a mental breakdown and I don't know what his trigger was?" I continued

''I've tried to profile him over and over again, it's driving me insane that I can't pick up anything because he keeps changing every second of every minute'' I placed my face back in my hands and shock my head from side to side unsure of what to do or to even think.

"I'm sure we will get to the bottom of it, tomorrow we will have another talk with him and see if anything has changed" she stated as I looked up at her.

''And if nothing has changed?'' I asked

''Then we will have to talk about the next step and what's best for him'' She smiled a sad smile while sitting down next to me.

"I agree, what's best for him is needed" I wiped away my tears.

"Good, now I think you should get some sleep, it's going to be an emotional roller coster tomorrow and we are going to need you to be at your best okay?" she nodded with reassurance.

I nodded in response and hoped back into my bed and pulled the cover up.
JJ got up of the bed and walked out the bedroom softly closing the door behind her.

I couldn't help but lay there and cry myself to sleep.

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*Next day*

"I don't need to go anywhere I'm fine!" Spencer protested as he wouldn't move from his seat.

"Spencer baby, we have to find out what's wrong yeah?" I asked leaning forwards so we were eye level, but all he did was back away slightly. I could tell he was still uncomfortable with me and wasn't sure on how to feel about all of this.

Last night gave me time to think about this and regain my thoughts, I knew I had to pull myself together for Spencer as he was clearly not mentally stable.
All I know for sure is I have to get down to the bottom of this for his sake and mine!

I stood back from Spencer with sorrow in my eyes and headed into the kitchen where Rossi and JJ were waiting.

"He won't listen to me! He keeps looking at me as if I were a ghost" I hugged leaning against the counter.

"Well to him you are a ghost" Rossi crossed his arms.

"I'll go talk to him, see if I can get him to budge" JJ smiled as she left the kitchen.

"Don't worry Belle, we'll get down to the bottom of this, you can count on that!" Rossi placed a hand on my shoulder and smiled.

"Hopefully sooner rather then later" I sighed running my hands down my face.

After a moment or so of complete of silence, I decided to go back to Spencer to see how JJ was doing.

I slowly walked into the living room, JJ looked up from Spence with a sad smile. Walking over to him I took a deep breath in, I just couldn't wrap my mind around what was happening it didn't seem real at all.

"Ah Belle could I talk to quickly?" JJ asked

''Yeah of course'' I nodded

''In the kitchen?'' She asked

''Yeah'' I turned and made my way back to the kitchen and sat on top of the counter top.

''I hate to say this but I think it's finally happened'' Tears were starting to appear in JJ's eyes.

I bit my lip as I tried to hold back the tears.

''Are you sure about this?'' Rossi asked with a frown.

''Unfortunately majority of the signs are there Rossi, I mean Hallucinations claiming to have seen Molly their daughter, Disorganized speech! when I was in there he couldn't even put together a structured sentence, Let alone being confused as to why everyone is here. He has completely withdrawn from reality, he is convinced that this isn't real.'' She sighed wiping small tears from her big blue eyes that were just filled with sadness and confusion, I didn't blame her as her best friend had just disappeared in a matter of hours.

''Schizophrenia, GREAT!'' I whaled, my head began to hurt, we all knew that it ran in the family as his mum has it. But to be honest we all thought we had managed to pass it as he hadn't shown any other signs.

''What do we do?'' I asked grasping on to the edge of the counter.

''We need to take him to his doctor, I'm sure he'll know what to do'' JJ stated

''Okay'' I said all so softly getting off the counter.

''I'll take him'' reaching for my purse and keys JJ placed a hand on me.

''Actually I think it's better if Rossi and I take him, He still thinks you're and figment of his imagination we can't have him breaking out again Belle, I'm sorry but you can follow close behind and once we get him into his doctors office I'll come get you from the parking lot okay?'' Her facial expression was oh so serious, I slowly pulled my arm back and nodded.

JJ and Rossi smiled as they grabbed their things and Spencer.

It was the hardest thing to watch them take him from me.

As he was walking out the door he gave me one last glance and it was like for a split second he remembered that I wasn't dead and that I was living and breathing waiting for him to come hold me and tell me everything was going to be okay, but then with a snap of fingers it was gone again and his facial expression became worried again.

I stood there feeling sorry, confused and worried with tears running down my face.

''Spencer'' I whispered as I fell to the floor.