Loving Dr. Spencer Reid

Spencer.

I took a deep breath in, this was it Bella. 

''Spencer'' I breathed as I pushed open the door wider. 

''Belle'' He whispered

I smiled as I rushed over to his bed, I sat down in a chair sitting next to his bed. 

''How are you feeling?'' I asked placing a piece of hair behind my ear. 

''I'm fine now'' He smiled back at me. 

''I'm glad, I was so worried about you Spence'' I said grabbing his hand and holding it in mine. 

''I'm sorry that I scared you like that'' He gave me a small smile. 

''Honestly Spence I'm just glad you are okay'' I said giving him a warm smile. 

''Can I ask you something?'' I added 

''Anything Belle'' He smiled 

''Did we really have a daughter?'' I asked biting my lip in hopes that the question wouldn't be too much for him to handle. He gave me a small frown and took a few minutes to answer as I guess he was trying to remember. 

''It's fine if you can't answer'' I assured him. 

''No, it's okay'' He smiled at me. 

''We had a daughter named Molly, it all felt so real, I know this sounds crazy but I miss her, even if it was just in a dream'' He shrugged 

''What did she look like?'' I asked moving closer to him with tears threatening to fall down my face.

''She had your eyes and mouth, she had my nose and humor, she was so smart just like the both of us, I just can't believe none of it was real, Honestly I just want to go back'' He sighed gripping onto my hand a little tighter than before. 

''I know Spencer, but I'm glad to have you back, I was really worried about you'' I sighed 

''Yeah'' Was all he responded with, I could see his trail of thought wander off back to what he had experienced in his dreams. 

''You know'' I said with a smile as a small tear had escaped. 

''There wouldn't be anyone else I'd rather have a daughter with then you'' I added as I quickly wiped my wet cheek. 

''Belle'' Spencer whispered as he too had a tear escape.

After a few more minutes with him, I told him I would send in the others as they were just as eager to see him and to see how he was doing, I gently closed the door behind me and headed back to the waiting room. 

''Hows he doing?'' Morgan asked rushing over to me. 

''He's good'' I sighed with a small smile.

''That doesn't sound good?'' Garcia said holding onto her coffee for dear life.

''No, really he is fine but he still feels like everything he saw and felt was real'' I stated as I looked at them with sadness in my eyes.

''Well I suppose to a certain extent it does feel real to him'' Morgan said taking a sip of his drink. 

''Yeah, well anyway I came back out to let the rest of you have a turn at seeing him before he goes back to sleep''  I smiled.

''Who wants to go next then?'' JJ asked as she handed me a drink. 

''Thanks'' I said to her before taking a sip of the hot liquid that I had badly needed.

She just gave me a small smile to say your welcome. 

''I'll go'' Dad said as he got up from the couch and made his way past us. 

We all just stood there watching him as he walked down the hall towards Spencer's room. 

I sighed to myself and sat back down on the couch, there really wasn't much we could do except to wait for more news on Spencer, My major concern was whether he would be allowed back at work after this. 

We spent hours at the hospital all just taking turns talking to Spencer, I don't know how long I had spent scrolling down my news feed on facebook, I felt like a brainless person looking through social media, all it was, was crap, there wasn't anything intersting or anything to make you think, it was just people making stupid videos and saying stupid things.

I sighed in defeat as I place my phone back in my pocket. 

I turned to dad. 

''Dad?'' I asked in a low voice 

''Yes?'' He asked placing his phone down and looking at me. 

''Will Spencer be able to come back to work?'' I asked picking at my nails in nervousness. 

''It's hard to say, headquarters might not like so much but I'll do my best, I know Gideon will turn in his grave if Spencer didn't come back with us'' My dad frowned at his own statement. 

''I miss Gideon'' I said looking down at the ground. 

''We all do'' He whispered as he placed a hand on my back and softly rubbed up and down. 

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It had been a few days now that Spencer was out of hospital but he still wasn't allowed back at work for another week or so, I'd go around to his house each day and check on him to make sure he was okay and if he needed anything, but all he wanted to do was work, so, in saying that with our cases I'd bring files home for him to look at so he could feel like he was helping. 

Today was Tuesday and I didn't feel like being here, I guess it was just one of those days. We had a new team starting with our B.A.U department and since more cases are coming through like wildfire Dad decided to bring on another team to help us out. 

We all sat at the meeting table as Dad was giving us debrief before we meet them. 

''Right, so let's begin, first, there is the team leader Aaron Blake, then we have Riley Dixon, Ava Holt, Jack Foxx, Zack Smith, Dr. William Clint and Katrina Harp'' My dad smiled as he clicked off the projector. 

''Jack looks interesting'' JJ cocked her eyebrows as she read through his paperwork once again.

''Yes, he is a character but he is vital, there aren't many people out there with a gift like his'' Dad smiled. 

''I don't know Hotch, I mean he's still a kid and what's not to say that he'll lose the plot at some point?'' Morgan looked around the table to see if anyone would agree with him. 

''I trust Blake'' Dad looked at Morgan with a forceful look. 

''Okay'' Morgan sighed as he placed his pen on the table. 

I sighed and turned my chair around to look out the window that looked down across the office, as I skimmed through the people I noticed a group walking through the doors being lead the secretary. 

''Looks like our new team is here guys'' I said still looking at them through the glass window.

''Right, I'll go get them, please shuffle around for them to take a seat, Morgan more chairs please'' Dad said as he walked out and greeted the new team. They all had smiles on their faces all apart from one, his dirty blonde hair was messy but his bright green eyes weren't hard to miss as they could light up the dark, the boy looked like he hadn't slept in days and I suppose with a disorder like his there was no time for resting much.  

''I hope this goes well'' Garcia smiled as she had made them all a mug. 

''I'm sure it will'' I assured her with a smile as I turned my chair back around to face her.