Taking Chances.

Part 4

~Eleanor's point of view~

I woke up and quickly rolled over in bed, Connor wasn't there thank god. Maybe he'd gone out to see her again, I didn't care. I preffered him out of the apartement. I sat up, ouch my bruises hurt! I quickly shoved on any top I could find followed by jeans and made my way to the kitchen. Connor would be mad if I hadn't made him anything to eat, I opened a pack of bacon and began to fry it, the smell of it made me feel sick, not in an appatising way.

After I'd made it, I sat down and began to eat a few rashes and thought back to yesterday, I felt safe there yesterday, I knew that none of those boys would hurt me, especially one, Nathan I think it was? He was funny, I think he's the one who I gave my number to? I don't really remember.

My thoughts were interupted with the slamming of the front door, I startled a little.

"I...I...made you some breakfast.." I said, scared

"Whoop di fucking do" he replied

"Don't be like that" I said "I could have left you to be hungry.."

His eyes shot up to look at me, he didn't blink once "Don't you tell me what to fucking do Eleanor, I could throw you out on the streets, but I haven't. Who was the one that took you in?"

"You...was..." I said

"Yes exactly, me. So I suggest you shut the fuck up!" he snarled

I nodded and then took my plate to the sink to wash it. I waited until he'd finished and took his plate, he stared at me

"You're so stupid Eleanor" he said "All you do is follow me around like a puppy"

I didn't say anything incase he shouted at me, I just nodded along

"I'm going out again" He said getting up "Come here" he opened his arms so I could hug him, he lifted my head up and then leant in to kiss me, hard, I knew I couldn't pull away so I just let him. Before he let go and then eventually walked out the door.

I hated living here with Connor, I didn't love him. But I couldn't tell him otherwise, he'd hate me, he'd hurt me. I was hardly ever allowed to step foot out of this apartement, I just have to wait for him to get back, normally he comes back drunk and that's when he's nasty. That's when I'm scared.

All of a sudden, I heard my phone vibrate, I had a text 'Hey Eleanor, It's me Nathan! I had a great time yesterday at the shoot! But I'm tired now! What about you? X'

I wanted to reply and talk to him, like I did yesterday, he made me feel wanted. But I couldn't, I had to delete the message. I can't let Connor see, he'd hurt me, or even him.

I spent most of the day sitting around watching the sun in the sky and children play in the park, how I wish I could join them or even be one of them, instead being stuck in here, that way he could never hurt me.

My phone vibrated again, a text from Nathan 'Eleanor? Are you there? X' I had to let him know I couldn't answer

'Nathan, Please leave me alone' I pressed send and put my phone down, it started to vibrate after, but I couldn't risk it at all.

Then I heard the door open, I shot up and saw Connor, he was drunk again.

"Hey baby" he said holding me around my waist

"Hi.." I said, scared to what might happen

He began to kiss me softly and then the kiss got deeper and deeper, he then moved down to my neck, I couldn't control him, so I let it happen, it was the only thing I could do. He moved me closer to the bed and pushed me down, I wanted to push him off and run away, but I couldn't, he removed my shirt and started to kiss my stomach, I hated him so much, but by god he knew what he was doing. He began to remove his clothes till he was in his boxers

"Do you love me?" he whispered

"Yes" I said quietly

He removed his boxers and I began to moan, I didn't want this at all, then he started to thrust harder and harder

"No. Stop" I said

He didn't listen and carried on

"STOP!" I said, pushing him off me this time

"What the fuck are you doing!? I thought you loved me!?" He snapped

"I do" I said as I put my clothes back on quickly, them my phone vibrated. I quickly ran over to the desk and put it in my pocket

"What are you hiding?" He said approaching me

"N-Nothing" I said, I knew it would be Nathan.

My phone vibrated again

"Show me, NOW!" he shouted

"NO!" I shouted back, suddenly he grabbed me by the neck and took my phone from my pocket

"Who the fuck is Nathan!?" He said, he began to look through the texts he'd sent

"Do you love him!? Is that why you won't have sex with me!?" He shouted

"No...no!" I said, trying to get it back. He pushed me on the bed and to my horror, the phone began to ring

"Hello? Is this Nathan?" Connor said "Right, well stay the fuck away from my girlfriend, are we clear!?"

"Don't speak to him like that!" I shouted, holding back my tears. He pushed me back, I got back up and slapped him across the face

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!?" He shouted and grabbed me by the neck

"CONNOR. NO" I screamed

"Don't you scream! Don't you fucking scream! I'll do it!"

I stayed still and didn't say a word, he let me go. I turned around, before I felt something hard hit my head, I fell to the ground and everything went black...