Taking Chances.

Part 8

~Eleanor's point of view~

I laid in bed, thinking about what Nathan had said. He loved me? He barely knew me? But I knew I had feelings towards him, strong feelings. He made me feel special, even when he looked at me.

Harveen entered "I got you some water.." She began "I mean, I know you don't like it, but drink it anyway..." She put it on the side "what's up Eleanor?"

I tried to hold back my tears, but I couldn't anymore.

"Harveen I'm in such a mess" I sobbed

Harveen was quick to comfort me "What? What kind of mess?"

"I'm in love with someone else" I whispered

"What? Who? Nathan?"

I nodded "I can't stop thinking about him, he was over here earlier and he told me he loved me.."

"What did you say?"

"I told him I loved him too..but I sent him away because of Connor" I said wiping away my tears

"Do you love Nathan more than you love Connor?" She asked

"Yes. Much much more than I could ever love Connor. Nathan makes me feel different"

"You need to tell Connor this" Harveen said standing up "Do it today, I'll help you"

"No. No I couldn't possibly!" I said shaking my head repeatedly

"He won't take it that bad come on, he'll understand"

"No he won't, you don't understand what he's like Harveen!"

She sat down "Of course I do! I've known him longer than you have!"

"He did this to me" I whispered

Harveen's eyes looked directly at me "He did this to you?" She repeated, shocked.

I nodded "All because of Nathan, and if I tell him I love him, he'll hurt me, he'll hurt Nathan!"

"Not if we call the police he won't!" Harveen said grabbing her phone

"NO! Harveen you can't! Promise me you won't say anything!"

Harveen didn't move

"Promise me!!" I repeated

"Oh alright" she said under her breath and then pulled me into a tight hug.

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Harveen left about an hour ago and I was left all alone. Connor hadn't visited today and I was glad. I was happy that Harveen knew what he really was, but scared she'd tell. I didn't want Connor to hurt me. Then my thoughts were disturbed by the nurse

"You've got a visitor" she said, I prayed to god that it wasn't Connor. Or Nathan.

Jay walked in, holding chocolates "Mind if we chat?" He asked.

"Sure" I said, clearing space on the chair beside me, I already knew what he was going to say.

"How are you today?" He asked

"I'm better than I was, thank you"

"Has you know who, visited you today?"

I'm guessing he meant Connor. "No, no he hasn't. Anyway, what are you here for Jay?"

"It's just Nathan.."

I rolled my eyes, I didn't want to hear stories about him. I know he would have reacted badly.

"How is he?" I asked

He looked down "I'm not going to lie to you, he's not amazing"

"Look, I didn't mean to upset him the way I did. I didn't think he'd go off like that...we've only known each other for a couple of days!"

He put his hand on my shoulder "I know, but he's not normally interested in girls. I suppose you changed his mind"

"I didn't know I had that kind of effect on people.." I sighed "I've never felt special, Connor has never made me feel special..but Nathan, he's different. I like him a lot"

He smiled "And that's exactly what he thinks about you"

"I want to tell him that, I want to be with him, I'm just so scared" I said, them the tears came.

"Hey don't cry!" He said putting his arm around me "Have a chocolate! Chocolate is good!"

I laughed "You're so strange"

He smiled "I know, I'd better be going now anyway" he said getting up and walking to the door

"Jay, I get discharged from here on Saturday..." I said, hoping he understood what I meant.

"Saturday" he repeated again and finally walked out.

I carried to lay back on my bed. I was getting sick of being in here, I just wanted to get out - I didn't want to go home either. I wanted to jump on a plane and just escape from everyone and feel safe.

Then, Connor came in.

"Hey" he smiled and kissed me on the cheek

"Hi.."

"Are you alright?" He asked sitting down on my bed

"Yeah I'm fine" I sighed "So I've been talking to the nurse and I can be discharged on Sunday.."

"Sunday, that's great. I'll come pick you up then"

"Yeah, that's great" I smiled back

He got up "I'm gonna go get some coffee" and with that he walked away

I had to lie, I didn't want anything to do with him anymore. On Saturday when I'm discharged. I'm going to run, run far far away. I just hope that Jay remembers that and can help me.