To Love A God.

It Is Okay

We got to the doctors around five. The doctor did a couple of tests, while Loki and I sat in silence, not really sure what to say. The doctor came back, her name was Cathleen. Loki stood up as she entered, "Is everything OK?" Even when he's mad at me, he's worried for me. It stabs my heart.

"Is it OK if he stays or do you want him to stay?" She asks me.

I reach for Loki's hand and he takes it and sits back down beside me, "My fiance can hear anything that's going on."

"Well your tests came back-" the door opens and in walks House. "Dr. House, I told you she's in good hands."

"Yeah, but not the best hands is she?" he tightly smiles. "Come on Cathleen, I'm her friend."

Cathleen rolls her eyes, annoyed by Houses interruptions, "Would you rather him?" I just nod my head. House won't sugar coat things on me. She looks down, then back at us, "Well, good luck and have a nice day." She says, and she exists the room.

House strolls a chair over and sits in front of us. "The tests showed you have a low platelet count, also known as thrombocytopenia. It causes bruising. Commonly found in cancer patients." House blows out some air.

"So you're telling me, the cancer has come back? But to my stomach?" I feel sickened. The cancer was gone. I had brain cancer a while back, but it had vanished. Now it's back in my stomach. How can this be happening to me?

"Yes."

"How bad?"

"Bad."

"Treatable?"

"We're going to try."

I puff out a sigh, then put my head in my hands, Loki rubs my back in comfort. "It's going to be OK," he whispers.

"I want to go home." I stand up, and walk over to House and hug him. "I'll talk to you later." I let go of him and walk out of the room, Loki shakes Houses hand and exits after me. He grabs my hand to stop me. "What?" I sigh.

"Let me put your jacket on you, It's cold out." He places the jacket on me and buttons me up. When hes finished I wrap my arms around him, and hug him tightly, he returns the hug. My gesture shocks me, usually I withdraw from people when i'm hurt. Right now all I want is Loki to hold me. I feel tears fall down my face a bit. I don't think I'm even sad about the cancer. I'm crying because of the man i'm with is amazing. I think he's more hurt about the cancer then I am. I look up to him, his eyes are a little red, he's been holding back tears. I reach up and kiss him. "I love you." he slightly chokes out.

"I love you too."

We go home and lay down. He holds me tight against his body. I just want to stay like this forever. I like this. Thoughts dance around my head. How? One minute I am completely healthy the next minute I've got cancer. Yay , go me I picked the lucky straw. I turn my body so I face Loki, he looks in my eyes, and smiles lightly, he pushes my hair out of my face, and tucks it sweetly behind my ear. "Ya know, my little tough warrior, we you will be ok.

"You won't ever leave me right?" I pout.

Loki looks at me his eyebrows burrow. "Never."

We lay down and fall asleep together.