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The Way You Smile { Makoto x Nagisa }

[ 151213 I've been inspired by EXO's new single Sing For You ( which you should totally listen to ;) bc rad af ) but this is just something a quick something in the mean time ]

With my old guitar
I'll take all the confessions I couldn't say
All the things I swallowed inside
And tell you right now as if I made it into a song

I love you so much but I don't tell you that I love you

"Makoto, I need to go!"

"Yesss, but this can't wait!"

It was tug of war between Makoto and Nagisa's arm. Pulling him towards the living room couch wasn't an as big of a task to what he was making it but he really didn't want to be any more on Nagisa's bad side than he already thought he was.

A soft sigh and a plump plop was the last thing Makoto heard before sitting opposite Nagisa. He picked up the guitar that lay stationary on the floor beside his foot.

This better go to plan.

"Okay, so what am I doing now? Just sitting? " The soft pout on Nagisa's face would normally make Makoto either laugh or roll his eyes. But this wasn't a good time for such things.

"J-Just listen, okay?" The look on Nagisa's face wasn't giving Makoto much help with nerves either.

"Why?"

"So I can sing for you"

He didn't move an inch. Nagisa sat there with the same up turnt expression. This wan't going too well.

"Right, look Nagisa. It's awkward, okay? my pride won't allow me to do it right but... I'll take courage today, now and tell you"

"But what if I don't like it?--"

"NAGISA!"

The silence that was thick with tension, leaked from the stare that the younger gave Makoto. Normally, the younger wouldn't be so up turnt in his actions but today he was acting difficult.

"Just listen. Without much thought, just listen so I can sing for you. I wanna say words that I've lost over the years. So as I'm saying just listen... And if you don't mind, smiling would be helpful"

The slightest corners of Nagisa's lips turnt, hardly a smile at all but Makoto knew better than to say anything else.

As he repositioned the guitar on his lap and the adjusted his fingers so they were in place, he started to sing.

"The way you cry, the way you smile
Do you know how much you mean to me?
I wanna say, words I lost
I'll confess to you but just
I'll sing for you, sing for you"

The soft turn of his eyes towards Nagisa, Makoto regretted. All he was met with was his company's thumbs firing aways at his phone. But of course, he kept on singing.

"I'm so thankful every day that you are here
You're a gift from God"

"Oh, really?"

Now, that made him stop playing. As his eyes drifted towards Nagisa's own, he could feel the pulsing beat of his heart slowing down. In this situation, he expected it to speed up but it did the exact opposite.

A groan escaped Makoto's mouth. He feels like it's a sign to say why on earth he'd show this to him, reveal how he felt. But there's no going back.

Nagisa had a blank look on his face. That wasn't normal but not nothing today had gone normal for him.

All he did was stare. His eyes weren't even that sharp or intimidating but Makoto felt like Nagisa could murder him with that stare. But his stare crumbled. It didn't hold. And because of this fault, Nagisa stood himself up.

"I need to go. Makoto, If you're not playing anymore, can I please leave? There's others waiting for me."

A smirk found its way onto the brunette's face. It wasn't intended but it came.

Nagisa felt something. Something was coming, like he knew what it was but he just couldn't wrap his finger around it.

"Ha. It's kind of funny, ya know? I only have you. But sometimes, I'm worse than that to you. I know. I know, I know, I KNOW, I should be better towards you but that's just me. Everyone finds me as nice, caring, goody Makoto but not, that's not me. That's not who I am. "

Nagisa could feel it.

"I act replusive towards you, as if i dont know you but when in truth, I just want my head in your arms and to be held by you. I sound hella cheesy but you gotta understand my love for you."

He said it. There. There It was. The words he was avoiding but knew was coming.

"Makoto... I understand- I really do! But.. I Just don't feel the same way.." He knew what was coming.

"Why? Why don't you feel the same?" Nagisa could feel anger approach hum from all angles but that wasnt allowed. He wasn't allowed to get angry at Makoto because if anything, it was Makoto that should get angry at him.

"Because Makoto, okay? Just because." And Makoto has got to admit that his leave was swift and almost missable. But of course, Makoto didn't miss it.

Although, Makoto still wanted the chance to tell him thoroughly about why he was telling him this.

"You'll come by tomorrow right, Nagisa?"

Nagisa paused for abit. He wasn't sure what to answer but stupidly answered,

"Yeah. Of course. First thing in the morning." And with that he was gone.

As soon as he stepped outside, the black SUV pulled up infront of the house that Nagisa won't step back in for probably a good 5 years. After what happened today? Maybe never.

The windows rolled down and the sweet face of his mother appeared. Her grin was there. It always was.

"Hey, hun.." her face was cherry red. Maybe because she had been crying. Nagisa was leaving for a long time so she had an excuse.

"Mum.." but even though he knew she was breaking inside, so was he but he couldn't allow his mum to see him weak. He had to be strong for her. After all, she would probably try to coax him into not going but Nagisa needed this scholarship that couldn't be supplied within his home country.

"Did you tell him?"

Yeah, he was suppose to tell Makoto that. Tell him that he was leaving.

"I couldn't. It was too hard"

"Alright then, bubs. Just..Just get inside or you'll miss your flight." He nodded slightly, thankful his mother didn't ask any questions.

He was also thankful for the dark tinted windows. He didn't want anything on his way out of town to remind him of what he was leaving behind.

The thing was, that getting in to the car wasn't the hardest bit. Neither was seeing his best friend's house get smaller and smaller until it dissappeared. It was the fact that even though the perfect chance came up, Nagisa didn't use the chance to repeat the most practised phrase that he always wanted to say to Makoto.

"You're a gift from God" He whispered, the phrase stuck solid on his tongue.

"You say something?" His mother briefly turnt her head towards him before automatically turning it to the road again.

Nagisa put on his best smile. The one that needed to be there rather than wanted to.

"No.. I was.. it was just a line from a really nice song that I heard. Nothing big. "

With my old guitar
I'll take all the confessions I couldn't say
All the things I swallowed inside
And tell you right now as if I made it into a song

I love you so much but I don't tell you that I love you