Girl Meets Feelings

Chapter Thirty-Three: Lucas' Thoughts

One Month Later:
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Lucas and Maya have been broken up for three months now. They've both been in their own worlds trying to figure out what to do with life.

"I don't know what to do, mom," Lucas said.

"About what?" His mom asked.

"I still can't get over Maya," Lucas said, sadly.

"I know sweetie. It's hard to get over a relationship. Especially one you were so serious about," his mom replied.

"I jut don't get what happened," Lucas said. "Well, I get what happened, just I don't get it at the same time. Everything was going so great."

"It was going really great you two were so cute," she replied.

"I gotta sort out my feelings" Lucas said. "I'm gonna go take a walk."

"Alright. Be safe," his mom said.

"I will," he replied. He put on his shoes and coat and grabbed his basketball. He left and started to walk towards a park.

I thought Maya really liked me. She said she did. But then after such a short time of us dating we break up. I guess it's my fault, but still. I had a reason. And I know I can't blame her for still liking Josh, but It still hurts. Vanessa cheated on me. I might have over reacted, but I wasn't ready to be cheated on again. And plus, if she hasn't chosen anyone yet, that probably means she doesn't want a relationship. Thus meaning, she doesn't like me anymore. Or Josh. Who am I kidding? Of course she still likes him. I guess you can't get over someone you like that 'quickly'. I know It's been a while but I know I haven't gotten over Maya so how would she have gotten over Josh? This is just ridiculous. What am I thinking? there's no way I can compete with Josh. He's part of the best family ever. My family is completely messed up. The thing is, that's something me and Maya both have. Something we both understand. She's the only person I know who's family is as messed up as mine. And I think I'm the only person SHE knows who has a family as messed up as hers. I understand her pain and she understands mine. We understand each other. That's something we both don't have with anyone else. Something only we share. I don't think I'll ever get over Maya. I honestly think I'm in love with her. And it hurts. I thought I could fall in love with her and it would all work out. But I was wrong. I was so wrong. Ugh WHY AM I SO STUPID!? I can't trust any girl. I was wrong to think I could. They just don't like me. What's wrong with me? I fell in love hard and I know she didn't fall in love with me. Because if she did, she'd be by my side right now. But she's not. So I need to move on. I just don't know how to, Lucas wrote in his journal. He was sitting on a bench at the park. He's had so many problems he needs a journal to rant to. He needs to write his thoughts down or else he goes a little crazy. Not literally crazy but he feels like he is.

He went to the basketball court and played basketball for a little while. After, he went home.

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A/N:

I think I know where you think this is probably going. No. Lucas is not gonna turn gay😂 sorry I made it sound like that. And sorry if I disappointed anyone lol.

What'd you think of the chapter? IK it was short but like I said, I'm pretty positive I had writers block when it got to the next chapters. Hope you still liked it!

I'd like 3-5 comments and 2-5 votes before I update tomorrow.

Byeeee unicorns!!! 🦄😘

-Jess