jordan's p.o.v
I've never done this before.
I've never told anyone about my past before.
Well, the people that know already know. They've witnessed it, or been told by someone else.
But her . I knew I could trust her.
I loved her.
I felt a deep pain in my gut as I replayed that sentence in my head.
I loved her. I loved her.
But no one could know. Or she could leave me. Or would.
I was not risking her. If he found out, I would tell Nonno and Nonna to move again. I would do it for her. Even if she hated me, her safety is best.
I took a deep breath. Her soft hand laced into mine. I squeezeed it, and I could feel her smile on the back of my shirt.
"I had a happy family. An older brother. A mom. A dad--"
"You're Italian, right?"
I smiled. Pretending to be annoyed, I said, "God, let me tell my story." She giggled and traced circles on my back. I shivered. "How come you're name is Mitchell?"
I sighed, and smiled. "My dad was a mix of black and Italian. My mother was pure Italian. And my dad's dad's last name was Mitchell. So it passed on and...."
She nodded. "You may continue."
I nodded, squeezing her hand tightly. I was in a no joke zone right now.
"My dad got drunk. I guess he was in a mafia...? Or a drug business? Anyways, Mami wouldn't tell me about that. My dad would get drunk, hit my Mom, Kevin, and I. Kevin would drink too, thanks to Dad. Mom would get worried sometimes, so Kevin stopped. Anyways, one day, my dad beat the shit out of my mom because Juley told him that my mom told the police he was smuggling cocaine. My mother died."
She squeezed my hand, rubbing my knuckles. I breathed in and out, in and out. This was painful.
"Jordan," she whispered. "You can stop."
Her voice gave me strength.
I shook my head. "No, you should hear this. Kevin was so mad, a few days later, he killed my dad. Mainly because he was abusing me. And he may have tried to kill Juley, too...." I whispered the end.
I heard Sofia gasp. "That's why your back felt like that. I thought it was my fingers...."
Trying to joke, even though now wasn't the time, I said, "Estupido."
She hit my back lightly. "Shut up, Jordan."
This girl.....
"Anyways, Kevin murdered my dad. He didn't get caught because he kept the gun with him. When the police began to investigate, he gave the gun to Nonno--"
"What does no no mean?"
"Grandpa. And Nonno went to Italy and put it in his great grandmothers grave. Kevin started drinking five times more than he usually did, and Juley found out."
There was silence. "Juley?"
I nodded. Her breath caught. "How.....?"
"Juley was my mother's sister. After they died, court came and said Juley was the legal leader since Dad killed his parents and had no siblings. Juley didn't want me. And she hated Kevin. She found three beer bottles in his car and told the police. He went to jail and was supposed to be there for three months, but then some dumbass from my dad's 'business' told a lie and said he had killed someone."
My fists clenched. "He's sentenced for fifteen years until they find proof. So far, it's been three."
I could feel Sofia's fists clench as well.
I continued. "This man, he contacted me, telling me not to let anyone know about his. He worked with dad, and he didn't want the police sniffing him out. Juley was the reason why I came to this school. But I didn't want to live with her. So I told Nonno--I mean Grandpa and Grandma--and they came here to take care of me. They were from Mom's side. I was absent the few days because of issues...... Otherwise I would've come to school."
She nodded. I was glad she didn't ask any questions.
"Jordan, I'm so glad I met you," she said, before her grip on my hand loosened on mine.
I turned to her, to realize her eyes were closed, and she looked peaceful.
I loved Sofia.
Realizing it made me feel like I stabbed myself.
Because if Christiano found out.....
No. I wouldn't think about that.
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BYE GUYS I HAVE TO DO MY HOMEWORK (JK, I'M PROBABLY GOING TO WATCH FAIRYTALE).
