Blair's War

Chapter 6: ' I've never been so disappointed'

Blair saint-clair:

The next day i still couldn't wrap my head around the fact that i was going to be a mom.

After i thought about it for a while it frightened and both excited me.

What i wasn't sure about was how to tell my family or worst of all the father of the baby...should i even tell him? Just the thought of him makes my heart break all over again.

Its like i was reliving that day all over again and i was seeing how stupid i was.

I looked to my right to see my sister staring at me. Her arms around my stomach.

She slept with me last night seeing as i couldn't stop crying.

"Hey!" I said softly and she smiled rubbing my stomach "how are you feeling?" She asked and i sighed "tierd" i said

"Well its probably the baby. I can't believe im going to be an aunty! Are you scared?" She asked and i laughed "Shitless!" I said

"But i got to accept my problems with open arms...crying about it wont help me and it can only harm the baby, which is something i really dont want, and i can't stress myself either so i choose not to think about it...for now!" I said and marissa smiled

"Your so strong! Im glad your my sister! And you know sometimes i feel like im the youngest" we laughed

"What?!? You wish!" I said but was cut off as my door slammed open.

We looked up, startled, at my brothers angry face.

He was holding the pregnacy test we threw away in the trash last night
"Who's is this?" My brother asked through clenched teeth.

My sister looked away and my brothers eyes instantly zeroed in on her "Marissa? Is there something you want to tell me?" He targeted her and i stood up steping in front of my angry sister.

"Its me!" I said and his eyes snapped to mine in shock "im pregnant" i said then looked away from his disapproving gaze.

"Marissa get out!" My brother said and she scrambled out the room but not before giving me a hug.

"Why?" My brother asked his voice cracking with emotion.

"I didn't mean for it to happen" i said

"Of course you didn't! Nobody ever does! But i never thought you'd be so stupid as to-" he cut him self off and breathed slowly.

"How long have you been sexually active?" He asked "bran-" i started

"HOW LONG?!" he yelled and i jumped back in fright

"I've only done it once...and it was at the party" i said and brandon closed his eyes.

"Did you go see an actual doctor?" He asked finally opening his eyes.

"No...not yet, i just found out yesterday" i said "well Go get ready...ill take you! And tell marissa to come to! Im puting her on birth control" he said and i nodded before quickly changing into some skinny jeans and a big T-shirt.

"Marissa!" I said entering her room.

She was laying there watching tv.
"Hey how'd the talk go?" She asked sitting up.

"He's pretty upset about it but hes taking me to get a real check up. And he wants you to come with so you can go on birth control." I said and her eyes widened
"What?! Why me?" She asked and i smiled.

"I think its best..i mean its better to be prepared then not." I said and she nodded solemly before she grabbed some shoes and put them on.

"Lets go sister" she said and soon we were on our way.
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Its been a little over a month and i still haven't told my dad yet.