How To Turn A Straight Boy Gay

Chapter Five: Don't Toy With My Feelings

I feel his lips graze across my neck as I realize the reality of the situation and push him off of me.
"Alex!" He blankly stares at me.
"Take me home. We should work on that project, since we skipped school and all..." I say swimming away from him trying to find an easy way out of the pool... without a ladder.

I manage to get out as I quickly wrap a towel prepared for me around my cold body. He follows me and reaches for his towel as I notice thin red lines on his arms. My heart entirely stops. My breathing dissipates as I clench my jaw. Alex cuts.

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We pull into my driveway as I unlock the door. Parents are still not home. That's a good thing. I walk up to my room as Alex parks onto the bed, did I mention he was soaking wet.
"Alex! Are you kidding me?!" I say as I throw him my skinny jeans and a white shirt. He slides his wet clothes off revealing everything accept his underwear.

My mouth gapes open. "Yah like the view?" I scrunch my nose. "No thank you." He slides on my clothes. He's a jackass. "So what next on the project?" He asks grabbing Agnes our baby egg.

"I guess a summary report. It's female, it has blue eyes, and brown hair so we're all good." I say plopping down next to him. Cas and dads car pulls into the driveway as I reluctantly unlock the door welcoming them home.
"Hey baby how was the little no parent vacation?" She engulfs me in a hug. I smile as my mind flashes back to the party.

"Calm." I lied. "Me and Alex have been working on our project for school."
Alex takes interest in our conversation and walks up.

"Hello Mrs. Edwards." He shakes her hand and smiles at her.
"Nice to see you again Alex; will you be joining us for dinner?"

He glances at me as I shrug. He nods to Cas as dad walks in with the bags.
"Hey Cameron did you have a nice-" he cuts himself off when he sees Alex.
"Alex? Well I haven't seen you in ages!" He chuckes as he wraps his arms around me and Alex. "Good riddance."

I walk upstairs after Cas and my dad start dinner. Alex decided to shower first and wash his clothes.
"Cameron! Listen to me!" Raven yells at me over the phone.
"I am!"
"You've been acting strange lately... what's up?"
"Nothing I've been busy with Mr. Edison's project." She pauses shortly.
"You mean with Alex." My skin churned.

"No! Raven! I have to get good grades even if it means working with Alex. You're gonna have to suck it up."
The line goes dead. Bleep.
Alex walks into my room... dressed.
"What was that all about?"
I glare at him. "Raven is mad at me."

He chuckles. "Wonder why."
"She's upset that I'm spending more time on the project then with her."
He pauses. "Kyler broke up with me."
I intently stared at him.
"When?" I ask as he makes his way over to where I'm sitting on my bed.

"Yesterday... he said that... I uh... I was too clingy." He breaks eye contact as he scratches the back of his head. Then continues. "I didn't care much, just pissed me off... he was complaining that I spent too much time with you..."

"I was so angry at him." He adds.
"Why?... It's not like I mean much to you." I chuckle. Of course Alex doesn't care about me. We've never looked each other why would he start now?
He smiles as he makes eye contact once again. He stares into my eyes as I finally study his gorgeous sapphire blue eyes once again. He bites his lower lip sending chills through my body sending my heart sky high.

He slides closer to me but he never breaks the longing, burning stare. He slides his hand softly against my cheek as he places his other hand in the mess of my chlorine filled hair. I slide in closer to him as he slides his former hand on my cheek to my sides, tracing downwards. He slides as close as he can get and starts leaning towards me.
"Alex what are you..." My phone rings. Ravens name pops up on the caller ID.

I push the phone to my ear as she cries to me. Alex sits beside me concerned as to he's listening too.
"Cameron... I'm so sorry." She pauses to cry. "I'm so sorry." My heart started beating harder.

"What's wrong?" I say as Alex scoots away from me standing up.
"Come over now." She hangs up. I stand up grabbing my jacket and glace at Alex and pause.
"Alex... I have to go."
"I know. I won't be here when you get back so you don't have to worry about me anymore. And we're done with the majority of the project so you don't have to ever see me again. Just like you said you don't like me. It's okay though. At least I don't have to waste anymore of my time." He starts out of the door as my dad stops us.

"Where you going Alex... Cameron?"
"Dad called me he said that he needed help at the house. Rain check?"
"Of course. Anytime Alex." Then he's gone.
"In going to Raven's she's upset." I say walking out of the house and cranking up the car.

Why would she call like that? Why did Alex say those thing? Why did it hurt?

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I arrive at Raven's as I knock softly on the door. Her mom answers and greets me as she always greets me. Sly smile. She never really liked me. Neither does her dad. She says nothing as I just nod at her and serve her a blank expression. I walk towards Raven's room. Last room on the right.

I walk into her crying her eyes out.
"Raven? What's wrong baby?" I say as I rush to her side and gently caress her hair with my fingers. She pulls away as she points at a little thin white line on her dresser. She's pregnant.

We never had sex.
"You...you cheated on me?" She cries harder as I stand up barely able to make it to the door as I rush out of her house to my car. Tears roll down my face and my hand reflexively grabs my phone. I dial his number. I have no one else...

"The person you are trying to reach has a voice mail box that has not been set up yet-"

I hang up and slam my hands on the steering wheel as I speed off towards my house. The tears keep falling as I pull into the driveway. I sit there for what seemed like forever until the ringer on my phone pulled me out of my inner thoughts. Alex.

"You called?" He says less interested.
The line goes silent as I whimper once then instantly regret it.
"Cammie? Are you okay?" His disinterested tone turned into a slightly worried one almost instantly.
"My...my...she...I'm..." Words wouldn't come out just tears. I did love her. And she cheated on me. I beat the steering wheel again throwing my phone at the windshield. Luckily it didn't break. I pick up my phone and place it at my ear after my melodramatic breakdown.

"Cammie. I'm coming over. Don't lock the window." He hangs up.
I walk inside. Luckily the parents are in bed. I trudge up to my room just tired. Of everything. The girl I thought I loved cheated on me. Boy, not only. She let another guy impregnate her. My life is fifty shades of screwed up. I lay back on my bed and stare up at the ceiling.

A slight tap at my window as Alex let's himself in. He stands there. Broken hearted. He really does care. He walks up to the bed and lays beside me studying my profile. He reaches up and runs his fingers through my hair. I calm down some as I close my eyes and nothing. The pain of Raven nothing is there but a single feeling. Tranquility. He hasn't even said anything. I lie there as I turn to my side not facing him. A long pause of silence I feel his jaw slide into the crook of my neck and stay there warming me.

"Your bed has always been soft Cammie." He whispers into my ear. I smile as he chuckles quietly.
"You make me feel strange Cammie... a good kinda strange. The kind that I would follow you through the depths of hell just to have that strange feeling." I shudder underneath his warmth and great smell. After a long while of silence he speaks.

"But I love that feeling. I love that it's with you."