The Diaries Of Brooke

WTF

After a week of school it was finally the weekend thank The Lord to that. I decided to actually be active this weekend no not sexual active I meant physically active like jogging. I got dressed in running shorts and a sports bra put on my Nikes pulled my hair up and grabbed my iPhone plus headphones. I was out the door by 4 a.m. okay I'm not crazy I just couldn't sleep like at all. I started running and before I knew it I must of ran about 9 miles because I was at the river to cross over to Forks I turned around and saw Sam and Jared looking at me weird they must of been on patrol.

"What are you doing Brooke?" Sam asked

"What do you mean just taking a jog." I said

"Your jogged like 10 miles at 2 a.m. in the morning." Jared said

"It's 2 a.m thought it was 4." I said

"Brooke go home and go to sleep." Sam said yawning

"How can I sleep I'm wide awake it's a really nice day today you know those trees looking really nice." I said

"Are you okay Brooke." Sam asked

"Me okay of course I am why wouldn't I be ever since I came back here it's been nothing but constant fighting I'm hated by someone I love my life is horrible I can't focus on nothing I always decline the best things that are asked me I'm a screw up not to mention I get called a whore by him I have no idea what to do and I run at 2 a.m in the morning due to the fact I can't sleep because every time I sleep I see his fucking face and I see him kissing other girls that should be me or I see what I screwed up on when there was a chance to fix things so the question is am I okay I'm perfectly fine." I said laughing with years coming out of my eyes btw the laugh was fake from actually crying even though the tears were running down my face.

"Brooke?" Jared asked

"I'm gonna go jogging yeah jogging." I smiled before running off

"Brooke." Sam screamed

I just kept running while they're calls for me faded the longer I ran.

I kept thinking about him I couldn't stop thinking about him how I turned him down after he tried making things right I'm such an idiot.

"Why am I such an idiot." I screamed

"Your not." Paul's voice said I turned around to nothing

"Paul." I said looking around

I fell to the ground crying.

It started raining and it was bad.

I haven't slept all week so the last time I slept was Monday night.

My phone was in my sports bra so it wouldn't get wet plus it had a waterproof case incase.

I just sat there and cried and cried it finally stopped raining I looked at the time and it was already 12 p.m when I got up I was covered in dirt from the rain all the mud got on me and dried making mud marks. My hair was a mess half out of the ponytail my make up I had on was smeared I looked like I got hit by a bus basically.

I started walking and on the way I passed Sam's everyone was outside and looked at me concerned.

"Still alright Brooke?" Jared asked he was sitting next to Paul

"Never better." I said a year escaping my eyes.

"I gotta go." I said

"Brooke get some sleep okay." Sam said

"I'm fine I don't need any sleep I'm gonna shower and go running again." I said

"You just got back from jogging wait did you jog in that rain." Jared asked

"You could say I did." I said

"What the hell happened to you Brooke?" Quil asked walking up next to me obviously just coming from our house

"Nothing Quil." I said

"Are you okay?" Quil asked

"Yeah Quil I'm fucking alright okay." I said running off towards our house

I got a shower I was in only a towel walking in my room I almost screamed when I saw Paul sitting on my bed.

"WTF." I said shutting my door

"Are you okay?" He asked concerned

"Why wouldn't I be." I said going over to my closet

"Jogging at 2 in the morning till 12 in the afternoon through the rain." Paul said

"I'm fine Paul don't worry about it." I said

"Brooke your not okay." Paul said standing up

"Yeah I am can't you be happy that I'm fine I'm not miserable." I raised my tone

"I would be happy when you didn't lie to me saying you were fine." Paul said looking me in the eye

"I'm fine really fine." I said smiling tears coming to my eyes

I got my clothes and went in my closet to get changed once I was changed I walked out of my closet.

I was wearing sweats and a t-shirt

"Brooke come here." Paul said opening his arms I started to cry running into his arms hugging him as he hugged me back.

After like ten minutes Paul went to pull away but I held on.

"This proves your not fine." Paul said trying unhook my arms

"Paul I miss you." I said

"What." He said hope coming to him

"I miss you Paul I miss us I want that back." I said

He picked me up hugging me kissing my face

He kissed my lips and I kissed back we kissed for like twenty minutes straight finally pulling away.

"Brooke will you be my girlfriend?" Paul asked

I nodded kissing him again.

That night I went to sleep peacefully thinking about how I have the love of my life back with me.