Styles Saved My Heart (Book 2 of Styles Saved Me)

Chapter 24 -- Hotel Room... Love?

Chapter 24

"Alyssa?" Zayn asks

"Yah?" I ask, stretching my back since I slept against the bed and zayn.

"Are you okay?" He asks me while rubbing a tear off my cheek

"Yah. Nightmare I guess" I whisper while rubbing my eyes.

"You sure?" He asks, concern written all over his face

"Yup. Do you have extra clothes?" I ask

"Yah but only a few t-shirts and jeans..... No girls underwear, sorry" he laughs

"It's okay, is it in here?" I ask pointing to his bag

"Yah" he answers. I grab a t-shirt that's too big for me and some black basketball shorts

"Turn around" I tell him since he's looking over at me, I wait for him to turn and then start changing. Suddenly I hear a gasp from zayn, I turn and catch him looking at me in only my bra and underwear

"Zayn!" I yell at him, he moves closer and feels the scars on my thighs, I flitch at first and he shoots his hand back before gently feeling my scars again. I slip the shirt on so I'm at least a little covered and it is almost long enough to be a dress

"Zayn?" I ask before sitting next to him on the ground his hand still on my thigh

"What.... What's going on between us?" I ask

"Nothing we're j- zayn stops, I give him a 'I'm not stupid look' and he sighs and looks down and my scars "I- I...... I love perrie and well you might still love Harry. We're just.... Well..... I don't know" he sighs

"Do you think...... Do you think Harry would do the same if...... I was successful?" I ask looking at my scars

"I don't think Harry would do what you did if you did die, and you didn't so its okay. Unless you're thinking of doing it again, then I need to report you to the hospital" he warned

"No, no, it's nothing. But do you think that maybe there's a cha- I stop talking, I can see it in his eyes. 'Yes, Harry would' he doesn't say anything he just pulls me into a hug. I cry for what feels like hours until I just can't cry anymore, zayn doesn't leave my side even after Niall and Liam text him asking where he is

When I finally stop crying zayn picks me up and puts me on the bed and I fall asleep instantly.

Zayns POV

Alyssa fell asleep right away, I couldn't believe how much pain she was in. I had never seen her this weak, when things were tough she had Harry there to help here and she never gave up, but now? Now I understand why she tried to kill herself, Harry had saved her life and he was all she had and she lost him. She had nothing, sure she had us and Kim and her parents but without Harry it couldn't be the same.

I looked over my shoulder at Alyssa, she looked so fragile like at any moment the wind could pick up and she would just shatter into a million pieces.

"Zayn? Why are you crying?" Alyssa asked me, I didn't even notice that I was. She crawled over toward me and hugged me, I leaned in and kissed her again

"Zayn?" I asked "what about perrie?" I asked looking down at his tattoo of Perrie

"I love her" he replied

"I know... It's just what do we say about the photos of us.... In the car?" I asked nervously

"Tell them it's photoshopped I guess?" he replied as more of a question

"Okay, can you go get us some breakfast?" I asked him

"Sure" zany grabbed his jacket and was putting on his shoes and I decided to take a shower

"You'll be okay while I'm gone, right?" He asked concerned

"I'm not going to cut while you're gone" I told him

"I'll be back soon, if you need me call or text me" he said with a unsure smile. Zany left while I walked into the bathroom and turned the shower on, I looked in the mirror which was slowly getting fogged up and I imagined that when it got clear again that I would be different, that the fog would take all the ugly, fat, and sadness away

I stepped into the shower which was becoming cold and tried to get as much of the shampoo and conditioner from the small hotel bottles, I stepped out of the shower just as I heard the door open, I wrapped a towel around my body and walked out of the bathroom

"Hey zayn, thanks for eve-

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Hi everyone!!! So this is actually really crazy to say (well... Write) but there are only three chapters left. Wow. Okay, I'm like crying I'm going to miss this story so much. Also... IM GOING TO SEE THE BOYS IN CONCERT ON THE FIFTH WHICH IS IN LESS THAN A WEEK OMG IM FREAKIN OUT THIS IS SO AMAZING I'VE WAITED OVER A YEAR FOR THIS!!!!!!