A Glance Into My Mind

Cancer

I lay on my side, In physical pain.

I don't know if I can do this again. 

You're sick, I know.

But it doesn't yet show,

So you cant be that bad yet can you ?

I just... I can not loose you too.

How am I going to live,

Without you there's no way I could thrive.

A child needs her parents,

what fairness is there in this?

No, its way too soon !

What do you mean you won't make it till June?

You mean you're leaving me already..

But I need you, you keep me steady.

Who am i going to come to for advice?

Who's going to tell me i need to think twice?

I can't do this on my own.

Please! I'm not even fully grown.

You won't be there to see me graduate,

Or be at my wedding and help me celebrate.

I don't want to see you at the hospital

I know that it's incredibly illogical,

but I'd like to remember you how you are,

not how you'll be just before you expire.

I love you mum, with all my heart, 

and I wish we'd never have to part,

but this ugly disaese has taken you away,

and I've never cried more than I did today.