A Glance Into My Mind

Unrequited understanding.

I sit in bed,

in a room shared with others,

I am in their company.

I am alone.

I am the only one who knows my pain.

I am the only one who wishes to end my life.

I am the only one who needs to get high,

or feel the sting of my happy knife.

I am in bed in a crowded room,

and I will be gone soon.

I wake up in a lonely room,

my mates are gone.

I am comfortable.

I remember.

my day starts as it did yesterday,

with the desire to see you be okay.

how much it hurts to like one who is hurt.

you can not be mine,

you were once hers.

I am sorry I feel this way,

I wish I did not.

my stomach is full of butterflies,

my cheeks burn bright, red hot.

I hope one day you'll be okay,

enough to love again.

for now I know it's not my place,

and I should just move on.

you interest me.

im torn in too.

I don't know what to think

let alone what to do.

I go down stairs and find I am forgotten.

I feel sad again, thinking about you.

I wish I could just tell you,

but your heart is only in one place,

and that is not with mine.

you will probably never be mine.

this story will be the same,

with us,

repeated until the end of time.